devil's child

2009-01-18T20:11:00.002+08:00

FAKE LASHES ARE NOT FUN AT ALL!!!!!!!!
SO HARD TO PUT N YET SO UGLY!!!!!!!!!
ARRGH, WASTE MOI MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!
next time when i grow up n play w makeup, i m gna use mascara instead!
rawr, im not gg to touch my fake lash anymore:(
IRRITATING!
anyways, gna change my blogskin n possibly my blog add too,
but who cares since this blog is like dead.
changing my blog on 22 jan, if ya noe wad date tt is *grins* and *sobs sobs*
JAE... tt made me so stressedup a couple of days ago.
i like arts course but i m a coward! i dun dare to take it:(
fack, shud have taken e.lit in sec3 n 4!!!!!!!!
yayaya, i chose science but dun ya tink tt TSD+econs+e.lit=cool combi???
but e.lit ned to study a total of bolldy 5 texts!woah!
anyway, i just pray hard tt i can study KI
n any sub combi tt comes with it wld be the coolest!!!
yay, even cooler than tsd n econs!
KI may be harder than GP, but GP is sooooooooo boring;
KI is much more interesting:) *winks at shiqi*
we actually went to RJC n the KI tcher there was explaining alot of KI things to us.
absolutely interesting!!!
now i just hope i can pass de selection test n interview for KI:)
(but the joke is both our first choices r nt RJ:P choosen other JCs tt offer KI instead haha)
i wna learn abt descartes, plato, kant etc!!!!(i wan to make friends w them!!!)
ohh, before i forget:
THANK YOU KUKU:D AKA CHIPPY YA:D
FOR WISHING ME N DELICATING A BLOGPOST W PIC SOMEMORE
TO WISH ME GOOD LUCK FOR OS RESULTS:)
I OWE MY LUCK TO YOU!!!!!!
*MUACKS*
LOVE FROM MUMU:D
AKA UR DEAREST SIS:)

may everyone get into our desired JC:)
n smth random:
i wna go on an anti-drug campaign

2009-01-12T17:51:00.002+08:00

oh, forgot to post:
i hit the pre-requisite to take KI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
whoots:) A2 in eng:)
oops, i haolian~ed again:P
imma pretty certain tt i wna get into KI in JC:)
KI, here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-12T17:31:00.002+08:00

i freaking got A2 for c.lit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
muhahahahaha!!!!!!! prelims n all my sku exams NEVER gotten an A since sec3 midyr!!!
omgomgomg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
moi is happy:)
but i studied very very hard for it:) spent lots of time on it:)
and woohoo:)
moral of story: STUDY HARD:D
*imma gg to get fake lashes too:) cos i tell myself if i can score vwell, i will buy fake lash, if not, i'll live with ugly,lashless eyes for 2 more yrs=.=111 LOL
uber lame but true:)
shopping too!!!!!!! whoots:) moi is in veh good mood:)
i am super happy with moi results,except my huge blunder in HCL:(,
but well, still didnt get B...
i really tried my best,
though not confident during n after exams,
i knew i will never ever regret tt i didnt study hard enuff.
i wld b disappointed if i score badly, but NOT regret:)
abit haolian but sry, i cant ctrl moiself to be happy:)
*huixin flaunts her prezie to zoey, im nt sure if she gt show off to other peeps, but tt goes to show that she likes it*
hahaha!wonder if moi clit tcher will b thinking if i m super lucky to get A2 for lit.
im being sacastic here:X but anw,这不是偶然的！！！！！

2009-01-11T20:24:00.002+08:00

l love my chippyya
n imma gna pinch her cheeks:)
ya tmr i gg bac to sch.
but nt cutting moi nails cos lidatt
i can jhengg my nails during cny.*jheng*
I FEEL AWESOME CAS MY KUKU IS BESIDE ME!!!*jheng*
yaya cos moi sis help me type moi post(: *jheng moi white teeth*
my kuku soooo RAWK YA NOE?
pipop pipop ya hear moi heart beating????
pipop pi~ing veh(kuku's word) fast!!!!!!!!!!!
copy hamster-.-
^ ^
(._.)
the labbit cute veh cute!!
but not as cute as my kuku!!
toodles!

2008-12-11T20:13:00.002+08:00

imma currently rotting @ home:(
no job:(
hais, good thang chalet is coming:)
i hav nth interesting to update cos my life now is super boring la.
oh, shopping w shiqi n
we took photos w de statue santa at 'photo corner' in tm,
damn stupid cas gt quite alot of kids waiting for us to take our photo
cas we took quite a long time to pose=.=
i got my moo moo (not mumu) to entertain me:)
moo moo is my new cow:)
of course i hav to
THANK MOI SIS FOR ENTERTAING ME @ HOME:)
hahas, i stripped my cow n moi sis video~ed it:)
nth to say la, i wanna make nougat but dun hav ingredients! fack!

2008-08-28T16:10:00.003+08:00

Joker: Their morals..their codes is a bad joke. Dropped at the first sign of trouble. They are only as good as the world allows them to be. You'll see... I'll show you. When the chips are down these civilised people...they'll eat other. See I'm not a monster... I'm just ahead of the curve.

COOL RIGHT???????????
SOMEMORE:

Batman: I have one rule

Joker: Then that's the one you'll have to break. To know the truth.

Batman: Which is?

Joker: The only sensible way to live in this world is going without rules. Tonight, you're going to break your only rule.

Batman: I'm considering it.

I BLOODLY LIKE IT WHEN BATMAN PLAYED JOKER'S GAME!!!
MORE MORE MORE:

Joker: Do you know why i use the knife? Detective? Guns... are too quick..you ont get to savour the little emotions. See, in their last moments, people show you who they really are...
So in a way, i knew your friends better than you ever did...Would you like to know which of them are really cowards?

OH MAN, THIS LINE MADE ME EMO FOR DAYS!!!!!UNTIL NOW...EMO~ING

Joker: All you care is money...This city deserves a better class of criminals, and I'm going to give it to them. This is my town now, tell your man they'll work for me..
Cut him up and offer him to his little princess( the guy's dog). Show him how loyal a hu ngry dog is .

LALALA

Joker: If Mr Reese isnt dead in sixty minutes, I'll blow a hospital. Of course you can always kill yourself Mr Reese, but that's a nobel thing to do. And you are a lawyer.

IS JOKER SUAN~ING LAWYERS???

STILL GOT ALOT COOL ONES, BUT I LAZY TYPE...
LAST FEW:

Dent: And the only morality in the cruel world is chance. Unbiased. Unprejudiced. Fair.

LASTLY:

Gordon: ...because he is the hero Gotham deserves...but not the one it needs right now... So we'll hunt him...beacause he can take it...because he is not our hero... he's a silent guardian, a watchful protector, a dark knight...

Dark Knight is so emo can!!!! look at the last line...did Joker lose??? I dont think so, if not, there wont be dark knight, and there would be batman instead.... Hais, i hope Heath Ledger didnt die so there can be possibly a dark knight 2!
but sadly he died, and rumoured becos of this movie... sad sia cos he's really good.
done emo~ing:)

2008-08-03T17:09:00.002+08:00

"Fear of death is one commonest fears,and one chief source of cowardice"
so if ya want to witness this cowardice,
kill with a knife instead of a gun,
LOL sounds familar???
anws, just happen to chance upon this quote.

2008-07-27T20:57:00.003+08:00

gotta love this:P

Now come one come all to this tragic affair
Wipe off that makeup, what's in is despair
So throw on the black dress, mix in with the lot
You might wake up and notice you're someone you're not
If you look in the mirror and don't like what you see
You can find out firsthand what it's like to be me
So gather 'round piggies and kiss this goodbye
I'd encourage your smiles I'll expect you won't cry
Another contusion, my funeral jag
Here's my resignation, I'll serve it in drag
You've got front row seats to the penitence ball
When I grow up I want to be nothing at all!
I said yeah, yeah! I said yeah, yeah!
C'mon C'mon C'mon I said(Save me!)
Get me the hell out of here(Save me!)
Too young to die and my dear(You can't!)
If you can hear me just walk away and(Take me!)

Lalalalas i love their bloody make up!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHH:)))))
love it love it love it:)
YOU MAY WAKE UP AND NOTICE YOU'RE SOMEONE YOU'RE NOT!
i dun under stand why ple call mcr emos
anws im not emo!
bitches r all 'round the place and if im gna get emo becos
of all those facking bitches,
i can jus gnd,
so blahssssss
to all bitches on earth,
may y'all BURN IN HELL!!!!!!!!!!!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSS:))
oh, i realise that i have nice teachers:)))
not PMP~ing,
i mean no teachers will come my pathetic blog anw
but i mean my teachers are not as bad as i thot they were though:))
hmm...thats all
MCR roxxxxxxxx!!!
anw notre dame de paris is a very nice musical too:))))

2008-06-07T19:21:00.002+08:00

forced to do this quiz by my sis:(

Have you seen a miracle happen in your life?
no, n m i to elab n b emo kid, lyk miricles a lie blah blah blah???tickle me emo!!!
What is the thing you want most now?
be a chim n a smart ass!
What are the goals you want to achieve in your life?
be a real smart ass-.-'''
If you have one wish to wish for what would it be?
be happy everyday:))
What am I afraid to lose right now?
my long hair!!!!!!!!!
Do you believe in eternal love?
i have not been in love before sp how i noe??
What if someone confesses to you?
i will ask the person to go n die:))
What do i really want now?
...go london n watch phantom of the opera!!!!!!!!!!
What type of ppl do you hate most?
ple hu tok n act w a motive...
Will you cherish every friendship that you have?
yupps.
What if you are tired of everything? Will you give up?
yea, nope.
What do you think is the most impt thing in your life?
my mind!!! i need to think!!! my nose!!! i needa breathe-.-'''
What do you want your friendships to be like?
sweet n trust bwt us:)))))))
Which country do you wish to go now?
LONDON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!to watch all musicalsssss
If you feel low one day, who would you turn to?
i wil bytch w kushi only:))))))))))))))))))))
Will you give up everything for the person you love?
how i noe i have not been in love!!! stupid qn!
If you have permission to destroy someone or something, wad would it be?
LIZARDSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. n i wil make sure they die a HORRIBLE death!
If one day, your loved one is going to be run-over a vehicle, would you risk your life and save him/her?
fuk, tis gettin my nerves!!!stop this mama drama-.-
Who do you miss now?
MUMU! n KUKU

DONEIESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS:(((

2008-05-08T22:22:00.002+08:00

Many many things happened in just this few days.
I dont wish to pen 'em down and recall of those again.
But im glad today's a relaxed afternoon.
Cant get enuff of all that emo.
But i guess we'll grow and learn to treasure and to be stronger and to know that we have each other by our side.
i open the blogger and i find that i really have nth much to write.
perhaps pouring out feelings (or bitching w sis!!! :) ) will be beta:)
on man i love bitching w sis man.
cant believe our situation is uber similar:)
love ya kushi:)

2008-04-13T18:57:00.003+08:00

whoot, havent blog for ages huh.
Bazaar was F.U.N, fun!!!
really enjoyed the whole process.
though b4 de bazaar, xin, qi n me were uber stressedup,,
its all worth the time n effort
n we SUCCEEDED:)
wee:) im happy.
the 3 of us really spent alot of time preparing for bazaar,
went out buyin' things till legs can break.
n qi was not really well after her 2.4 n
yet she stil walk so much.
iloveu qi:)
xin also, poor xin so stressedup:(
iloveu too xin:)
me n qi got lost at payalebar mrt station for half an hour on thurs!!!
bloodhy hell got cheated by a sec 1 boy! grrh!
super BUSY on bazaat tt we cld hardly take a break!!
hehe!
I LUV IT WHEN PLE GOT THEIR
R.E.T.R.I.B.U.T.I.O.N:) :)
retribution is smth u get when u try to do smth real NASTY to other ple but got them urself in the end:) :) :)
the feeling is super shuang man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahas me n qi so xin zai le huo:P
i mean how can ya do tt to us???
i was and am still v.disappointed with the ple qi described as ugly.
i totally agreed w her.
kekeke.
then we experience smth super wenxin can!!!
we shared food in the rain n find ways to keep ourselves dry.
i seriously hope tt this friendship wont fade pls!!!!!!!!!!!
i hope i wont be disappointed when i finally can trust friendship again:X
hais.
well,
tok to xin for near an hour
n huixin for another near-an-hour ytd.
huixin tell me some super chim chimology poem
n i told her phantom of the opera lyrics...
guess wad, she actually listened to me!!!
hardly anyone can understand or WILLING to understand me toking POTO lar!
raoul says "say you need me with you now and always"
the phantom says "say you want me with you now and always"
see why i like it so much???
perhaps huixin knows.
i wld rather want than need in this case...
(of course for MATERIAL stuffs we have to go for needs la, duh!)
but emotion is not material.
btw linli told me guohao is steadin' w agnes.
damn tt fugly agnes tt goes blinking every moment as if her eyes got prob!
hahas, nah im not despo over guohao
but i jus simply find him clown.
its not easy for ple to entertain me u noe,
n guohao actually did it w his retarded-ness:X
oops im bad.
anw, I DIDNT GET TO SEE HIM SING ON BAZAAR!
super sad to miss this opportunity:(
gees, bb:)
ps, i love my laopo~s<3

2008-02-03T19:01:00.000+08:00

COOKIES TO MIDNIGHT:)
i cant wait to tues:)
blahs. nth fun to update.

2007-12-13T00:57:00.000+08:00

Background music is Disenchanted
by my chemical romance.
its my fav non-musical song:)
hahas, some music at last tt is not musical stuffs=P
i think this song is very nice n
it matches my skin:)
hmm, this song is not musical-ish,
neither is it fast-goin',
but i dont noe y i just like it.
its like music to the ears,
u dunno wads so nice bout it,
but u just think its nice:)
ytd, which is few hours ago(cos im bloggin' at 1am ;P),
mcr held a one-night concert in s'pore.
obviously i didnt go
but i kinda like mcr!!!
they r so rock
n i really admire their make-up.
gimme 5yrs n perhaps i'll colour my eyes like theirs.
hehes,mayb tt wld be out-dated alr.
its not tt i only like musicals,
but i like music tt will make u wna move-it!
mcr's got g8 rythm except for disenchanted i guess.
hmms,n phantom of the opera's rythm is diff from mcr's
(of course!!!),
but the orchestra n de rich music make ple wna move
to the music too,
n besides tt,
not only will u wna sway ur body,
ur emotions will get swayed by it as well,
immersing in some g8est pleasure music can ever give:)
three cheers for g8 ALW for writing g8 musicals!
but heck, i sorta hate ALW for writing a sequel to the phantom of the opera!!!
oh man, its not tt i doubt his talents to do a good job,
but hell, i damnit love de original one like hell le...
worst still, its gna based on a stupid story book:(
i like all kinds of musicals
cos i think its ingenious to chain up a story
with songs.
but i prefer musicals tt has a super nice story plot,
like a literature work,
n de music is like played by orchestra tt kind...
more to tt of classical genre:)
i dun really like those when they just throw in a few pop songs
into the story just to make it a 'musical'
n the music r like no link ones.
watch another musical on youtube recently n its
Notre-Dame de Paris:)
heard of it ple???
well, its commonly known as the hunchback.
yar, hunchback, sounds familiar rite?
i watch de Disney cartoon b4 n its a happy ending:)
everything ends so nicely.
but HECK,
disney really has got power
to change a TRAGEDY to a happy story!!!
when i watch the musical, its so sad
n everyhting went wrong!
n i can tell u de musical is de correct version.
y???
cos its a novel written by Victor Hugo,
the same author who wrote les miserables.
though i didnt read notre-dame de paris,
but victor hugo writes SAD stories.
anw, de musical is in FRENCH
n obviously i cant understand a word,
so i just listen n read de eng subtitle.
but according to de comments on youtube,
de subtitles r badly translated,
but i guess de meaning is somewhere there.
some of the music r REALLY NICE.
one of them being le clouches aka the bells.
cant understand, but one part is very nice.
the hunch back said
he rang those bells that will never ring for him.
sad rite!!!
im not a sadist but somehow
sad stories leave a deeper impression in my mind.
like the lyrics above,
the bells he rang r blessings
like the bells rang during one's wedding,
but he'll never receive such blessings ever in his life
so he's sorta sad everytime he did his job:(
well y wont he got married is bcos he's ugly...
but im NOT crazy over stories with ugly characters!!!
it jus happen to hav a character tt is sorta ugly n outcast like phantom.
n ITS DIFF FROM PHANTOM OF THE OPERA
cos christine loves the phantom n i'll go all de way to argue this point,
n they shared intensity,
however,
in notre-dame de paris,
de girl dun like the hunchback...
i dun really noe actually cos i didnt read the novel.
les miserables is super nice as well!!!!!!!!!
i love how such musicals bring out the inner struggle of characters:)
i shall end with some disenchanted lyrics
"and when the lights all went out,
we watch our lives on the screen.
i hate the ending myself,
but it started with an alright sceen"
and
"you're just a sad song, with nothing to say,
about a lifelong wait for a hospital stay."
it is also deep, jus like tt of musicals:)
spend a life doing nth jus to wait to die in hospital...
wow, tts sad n certainly i hope i wont landup in such a state.

2007-12-12T16:25:00.000+08:00

Awwwwwwwwww, so CUTE!!!

and super duper SWEET!!

dun get diabetic after looking at it!!

i suddenly super miss my late MUMU:(

2007-12-07T17:01:00.000+08:00

I STILL LOVE THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA KIES!
well i changed my blogskin is becos i wna a WHITE background.
so if YOU CREATE A POTO SKIN, PLS GIMME N I'LL THX U LYK HELL
PLUS I'LL GIV YA DE HONOUR OF HAVING UR SKIN AS MY BLOGSKIN!!!
so wad r u waiting??
go create a poto skin NOW!! *er hems huixin*
hahas.
nth to do at home.
n me n my sis r sick of BUGIS
cos all de things sold there r ALL THE SAME
n nth special.
n if u buy smth from bugis street,
u'll c bout mayb 2-3 ple in the streets
wearing de same thing as u...
i bought smth there recently though:P
egeog is makin me vomit blood!!
i dont wna go so fast to Sec4:(
cos im scared.
well, this blog is sooooooooo DEAD.

2007-11-03T22:20:00.000+08:00

today went volunteering at ECP
for the osim triathalon(sp?) thing.
then i experience wad is call a
Culture Shock.
hahahahas.
shiqi's n my job was supposed to help
the participants who reached the finishing line to put on a medal
cos we were the finishing chute staffs.
n btw, there were lots of angmore participants.
then, there was one angmore guy
who bent 90 degrees to let shiqi help him wear the medal.
ok, then he extended his hands to make a handshake with shiqi.
then shiqi kana a shock
cos the angmore go kiss her hand!
k, i noe its their culture or smth,
but mayb S'poreans jus dun get v.exposed to such stuffs yea.
then i was LMAO-ing:))
n shiqi was lyk " i scared scared,
i dun wan to wear for angmore anymore":)
shes jokin lah,
budden, aft tt,
we observe the angmores,
and those who were v.'high' ones, den we were lyk erm...
k, then i was helping another angmore guy
to put on the medal and
he was lyk "so do i get a kiss?"
then i give him a wth look and said no in the wth tone.
n shiqi was lyk"i tink hes pissed off by u".
anw, i noe hes kidding lah.
but that goes to show that angmore
are so much more open minded.
n perhaps S'poreans arent tt open minded aft all.
well,
earned myself CIP points today
n $10!!!!
envy ple:)
n i gotta see some of the interesting things
i neva ever seen b4.
tatas.

2007-10-13T16:37:00.000+08:00

i gg to make my IC next mon
n i tink its totally STUPID.
siao lar,
identity card???
why on earth do i need an identity card???
to let ple identitify me???
isnt it DUMB???
you noe,
instead of 24601,
i am recognised as 923***2.
and instead of yellow ticket of leave,
i got a CARD.
n this is CRAP.
are ya excited bout gettin ur IC?
i m totally DISGUSTED!
i dun even wna go make one lar.
then with an IC,
i'll go arnd hahaha,
i am shumei,
see see see,
this is my IC!!!!
i didnt bluff you rite,
my IC says shumei.
why put ur identity into a cheapo card.
i cant be bothered to take a photo for
the IC cos i dun take it seriously.
ple wont recognise u,
but ur card.
n next time everything u do,
ple will ask u to show ur IC.
n i feel like asking de ple to go die
cos fork,
im here n they dun believe de person,
rather,they choose to believe a card.
wad logic.
24601.
n my birthcert no is jus like the number
given to jailbirds for ple to address.
sian.
a card only ma.
alphabets serves the same purpose.
"wads in a name?
that which we call a rose by any other
name wld smell as swt"
wads the diff bwt "s.h.u.m.e.i"
and "9.2.3.*.*.*2"???
calling ple numbers are more rude,
but they both serves as an identity to other ple.
n when ple make fun of names like
choumei suanmei etc,
i tink its like ok,
my name is for ya to use,
but i dun need this name myself to call me.
i wont get offended or wad,
jus tt, ok it dun really make a diff wad
u call becos in one way or another,
u r refering to me.
sian i dun wna make an IC.
it makes me feel so sick.
anw, i wna buy a pair of very-high heels,
but the price is also very-high:(
but the forking prob is,
it is very-nice!
but den,
i figured out that money is not a prob.
i tink its beta to buy a pair of slightly ex shoes,
then many pairs of not so ex n not so nice shoes,
i means they both will add up to be arnd de same price.
u dun bring ur money into ur coffin so spend it.
but one thing that holds me back is that
im wondering if there will b a sale anot for de shoes,
but i scared l8r if i dun buy den next time dun hav le.
i dun wna be slave of money n saving-up
n now im RESOLUTE to SPEND all my money,
i dun care.
debriefs next week,
im scared to take bac my results cos i gota
feeling i wont do well...
i dun wish to attend debriefs,
but then again,
why must i let the marks make me so scared?
siao,
i no need to spend my life being afraid of my marks.
i've done all the studying,
n i tink bad results jus show i didnt try hard enuf.
im aware of this fact alr, so wads the prob?
besides exams r not jus de results,
its the process.
ok, its a learning process,
a process tt teaches us not to be manupilated by marks.
i hav been wondering y i was soooooo
marks conscious last time.
u noe last time i went home to check my ans
after exams to make sure im rite.
but now, i dont check my ans anymore,
its not that i dont care anymore,
but pls lar,
i did wad i need,
teachers will tell us the correct ans
during debriefs,
so there is no need to complain n all
becos i did a qn wrongly.
wenxin, joc n me
was saying tt ple at our age
being SO COMPETATIVE
is SO SCARY.
yupp.nth to say anymore,
bye bye.

2007-09-06T16:46:00.000+08:00

my SPA is terribly horrible!!!!!!!!!!
well i dun wish to rant bout studies stuff here.
it wld be so sian tt everyone is blogging bout studies.
i went to watch Ratatoullie(sp??) :D
super NICE
n i highly recommend those who r planning to catch a movie
to watch this show!!!!!!
the rats r so cute:)
reminds me of my mumu:(
then my dad n sis accompany me go shop Bugis
n muhahahahaha
my dad bought me a pair of shoes:)
yay:) dad's de BEST!!!!!!!!!!!
this few days r quite crazy n sort of fun
except for the F SPA.
on tcher's day celebration,
i was sooooooooo happy...
well not happy,
but in a sense i lauf untill v.jia lark:)
i went to ask for Javin's autograph! hahas
damn funny sia.
we followed him n look for him all over the sku man.
we practically combed everywhere:)
hahas, baofang so SHY dun dare to see him face to face
n she regretted it:((
hahas not really so lars:)
i wondered y she likes him lars.
hmm...nvm
so crappy!
i dun even like him n i ask him
for his autogarph as if im his avid fan.
ms gan mus b diao-ed:)
hahas.
i spent my days laufing like crazy
w/o any reason.
for eg, on mon nite,
i tink i gotta huge blow from my bio er hems
tt i suddenly,out of sudden,
lauf uncontrollably in front of my sis...
hahaha.
n i lauf for v.long untill my stomach v.pain.
lauf untill i fell onto the floor to lauf,
I DUN NOE Y!!!
siao liao:)
FAMOUS LAST WORDS:

i wna colour my eyes like the main singer!!!!
then i will look like a panda
n b Mrs Chang no.2:)
hahas.
kee siao again:)
btw,my hair has grown:)
n i dun wna cut:)
random.
oh, another random thing is tt
my current fav pic is
"the creation of Adam".
the reason y i like it is bcos
its controversial.
but i really think its
ingenius-ly painted,
esp the angels part:)
hais chem tmr:(
tatas:)

2007-08-03T18:04:00.000+08:00

i've just painstakingly compiled
all the les miserables 10th anniversary concert videos on you-tube
to a blog that i had specially created to post those videos:)
i actually thot of buying the DVD but then
now that i've got them neatly arranged in a blog,
i can save the money.hehes.
the DVD is EXPENSIVE lorr!!!
i like the show man!
n i've linked the blog here...
at the left hand side.
but i dont think any of ya would
like the videos.
i think maybe ya may find the singing weird,
i mean it's not hip n pop afterall
n is a completely different kinda music
we are exposed to.
nevertheless, i LOVE les mis musical v.much:)
ya can go try the link but trust me,
ya wont understand them.
n pls dun comment in the blog,
pls dun leave remarks like
erm wadeva wadeva ok pls?
thangQ:)

2007-07-29T15:53:00.000+08:00

the previous post was emo i guess.
im supposed to do compo now
n i've been doing it for the whole afternoon,
only to get less than one para done:( wow:(
nth to update actually...
except one hao4 lian4 thing to say is
my NAPFA 2.4 run timing is super damn
shocking!!!
i improved arnd 3-4 mins from last year timing!!!!
*smug smug smug*
hahas, listening to music helps!!!!!
esp loud n rock kind:)
i didnt listen to the phantom of the opera
cos the music doesnt suit the situation.
n the weather was super good,
very the windy,
and when running, it was shiok:)
hahas.
goddamnit,
im abit worried for my 5 items
cos last year i failed one:(
i wasnt expecting 3 points
though i gotta C grade for my 2.4;
the 2.4 was unexpected n a bonus,
i dun tink i'll aim for gold becos of tt.
i cannot jump,cannot pull n cannot run fast:(
nvm.
oh yar,
i almost wanted to faint!!!!!!!!!!!
i put on 0.8kg n didnt grew a tinny weeny cm!!!
wth!
:( im sad!!!!!
*WAILS*
boring post.
i wna SLIM DOWN but
diet neva works for me:(
tatas

2007-07-12T20:17:00.001+08:00

i just feel like i am livin everyday
for the fact that i am breathing every second
and that's what i need to do
till my breath takes me away.
i am going everyday like rather meaningless-ly
and i dunno what i want.
i feel that i am wasting my life man.
i am just going and going,
living and livng without a purpose
and without knowing where i am heading.
i am not doing much,
i am really wasting my own time.
sometimes,
i dont even understand myself,
what exactly am i thinking
n what's exactly on my mind???
i have got no idea myself.
ever since S2,
i feel that my life has been empty.
sometimes i feel so lost.
and i want to find me myself.
emotions plastered.
i envy happy people.
i just went debi's blog and
i saw that she's rather happy,
though she might be emo now and then,
she's having quite alot of fun...ENVY!!!
n my life is pure boring!
i oughtta getta life man!
teach me how.
i cant confide,
i think i must admit that sometimes
i cant even confide in myself
and choose to ignore every damn thing that is
happening to me.
i ignore.
i feel so damn-ed.
i want to go get a life overseas badly...
maybe this is under the influence of angeline
who promotes Canada so much in front of me:)
sometimes, i look into the mirror
and the person appears in front of me
could appear to be so unfamiliar...
i cant recognise her...
who exactly is she
and who exactly am i?
i dunno.
i want to get a purpose in life
and stop all these masquerades anymore.
i've achieved nothing so far
and i live everyday so boring,
so meaningless-ly,
so tiring,
so not-knowing-who-am-i.
kies...emo here:(
anyways,
i love loud music,
more of rock style like Linkin Park:)
i think few people i know will like them,
i thought people of my age would prefer
younger singers like justin timerlake=p
anyways, it is not that i like the singers.
i dun even know how many members
are there in Linkin Park!!!
lag lagged lagger!!!
anyways,
'what i've done'
is nice.
some 'older' songs i came across nowadays include
'numb' and 'it's my life(woww this song is old!!!)'
are rather nice to me recently.
i love loud, rhythemic music blasting at my ears!!!
nevertheless,
my favourite of all time is still
THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA!!!
i love it.
it understands how i feel
and i understand its whole feel:)
hahas;)

2007-07-01T16:01:00.000+08:00

watch this video:

n on my bus journey back home with hui xin
after "hu pan liu heng" ytd,
we tok bout stuffs,
actually i started the crap n
huixin was lyk "this subject very heavy lehsss..."
we toked bout how life's being unfair
n life in third world countries.
abit lyk old folk's lectures,
but i was touched by wad we said
n i really felt lyk crying.
it wld be rather ridiculous ti cry
becos of tt rite...hahas
we ought to really treasure wadwe hav.
we r here pickin' the food we wna eat
n there r many ple who dun even hav
anything to eat.
so we really ought not to be so choosy.
tis ESP applies to Debi Seah!!!!!!!!!
one part of the video showed
a lady measuring her slim waist,
wna loose weight to look good,
but the next part immediately after tt
was a person so thin to the extent
tt he is only "pi bao gu" cos of poverty.
yea yea,
i dunno wad to say.
n huixin n i figured out tt this topic
was rather heavy esp after de preformance,
so we switched to GOSSIPS!!!
gossips give girls pleasure:)
we gossiped bout CDC yinghui(not 2BN yinghui!!!)
n tt girl pissed us off.
suck like shyt attitude,
another shyt person in CDC.
i wonder if 3yrs later if she dun get into CDC com,
i bet her behaviour wld be lyk someone...
i dun really like her.
but i still hope tt she wld change my
opinions of her by not being so shyt in future.
"hu pang liu heng" is exhausting,
but nevertherless smth that made me touched
by letting me see tt all our efforts had paid off.
we enjoyed the applause from the audience,
but im still contemplating if i shud lyk drama
which makes ple be sm1 who they arent,
plastering emotions on their faces...
i wondered why actors like to do that...
i think its rather meaningless n
its lyk clowns entertaining other ple...
however i respected broadway actors
bringing pieces of great art on stage,
esp those who bring Andrew Lloyd Webber's
phantom of the opera so splendid-ly on stage:)

2007-06-24T15:30:00.000+08:00

last day of hol.
in de past one mth,
which is supposed to be hols,
i didnt bloody enjoy much
n i only got to go shopping one time
and de worst part is i only shopped for 2hr:((
but den,
i bought smth tt i wanted:))
beta off dan nth:))
i got myself a SKULL CLIP!!!
had been finding one
and yar,my sis spotted it:))
*thanks kuku!!!mumu loves ya:))*
n i bought a pair of shorts as well:))
erm, it seems short,
but the length is decent!
kk...nth le.
boring hols packed with HW and CCA:((
i've read some interesting articles on de net:))
but im sure all of ya will find those articles boring=P
i read de "murphy's law" which i still dun quite get
wad it means...
it states "anything that can happen,will"
and heck, wad de hell izit tokin???
i dunno if its scientific or philoso-phic???
like its only a casual n feedup comment made by some person
and ple find it so...wadeva, i dunoe.
and de "second law"(thermodynamics)
which is like i oso dunno wad it means...
???????????????????
jus find some of the ideas new n interesting lorr.
n to pass time n slack in front of com...
i dunnoe where to go in de net larrs:((
jus being random...
tmr starts, hectic life begins:((
im not looking forward to sch re-opens!
n hell, i've got nth to write for my compo draft:((
heck, I HATE TO WRITE NARRATIVE ESSAYS!!!
WTF!!!
wad a boring post.

2007-06-20T18:39:00.000+08:00

MUHAHAHA,
my wonderful,phantom-phever creation!!!
n im sooooooooooooooooooo proud of it:)
did it during BN'05'06 chalet:))

koped from amanda's blogg:)--at night

koped from yinghui's blogg:)--in the morning

haha, they post my beautiful artwork on their bloggies:))
*being BHB again*
hmms...there is this 7-weird things quiz gg round;
i didnt do de quiz,
but one weird thing bout me is...
I CAN FALL MADLY IN LOVE WITH fictional characters=.='''
hahas:))
homework is bit lagg,
but i've cleared de difficult to do ones le:))
*smug smug smug shumei=p*
kk...actually,
still got quite alot haven done yet lars...
JiaYous peeps!!!
n goodluck with ya HW:))
recently,im feeling ???
i dun wna to use de word "emo"
cos too many ple using it
n i didnt really get de definitions of it:)
i feel "not right"
but i DIDNT think of de depressing stuff...
its jus de feeling u noe...
i didnt think of unhappy stuffs,
but im feeling i've jus thot of loads:(
hell noes wad happen!!!
i use to dislike CDC
n im not very sure if i still dislike it...
after de full-run today,
i felt that its a committment n a responsibility...
though i've nvr deny de fact tt it sucks,
n i didnt really like de seniors
cos i think they dun like mii:((,
after seeing yingwei break down n cry todae,
i feel that the seniors r actually putting lotsa effort
n much more committment in it,
moreso they r taking their 'O's this yr...
------------------------------------------------
im not saying that ple lie to me but
i HATE lies!!!
LIES ABUSE TRUST
n thats sucha ROTTEN thing!!!
im not gna to lie anymore
unless the stituation forces me to.
i dun wan to lie,
ple give me their trust
tt is sucha precious
n beautiful thing
n im really a bad to actually
abuse it.

2007-06-05T12:15:00.000+08:00

hols hw 3 whole lists!!!
WTH
i just feel like blogging now
so yea...
nth to write bout actually...
well...
i think that i was depressed last yr
is becos i kept holding on to stuffs
and reflecting on the things that happened to me...
now, i have reasons to be depressed,
but somehow,
i dun give it a damn anymore
and i cant be bothered to think bout them.
i dun feel like wasting my time
and effort on those stuffs
like why like this,
why liddat
why am i in this state or something sort of.
i couldnt care less
and perhaps
i dun want to...
sometimes,
i just feel pissed and yeah like wadeva...
i dun that things so seriously
and now that i come to think bout it,
it is not a good thing...
at least,
in the past,
i am still concern bout things that's
happening to me
and spend time to question myself why
(though i ended up making myself depressed)...
but now,
i just let things come and go...
i am fedup but i dun want to
question myself anymore...
perhaps i dun want to waste my effort
and time...
but tis not good
cos i aint reflecting on myself
and the things that took place:(
well well well...
heys peeps!
inspiration struck me
when i was looking at my nails sticker!!!
hahahahas:)
i've made a connection between
physics and philosophy!!!
like wow wow wow+.+'''
hahas.
yup.
interesting isnt it???
i mean science and spiritual stuffs contridicts
and muhahaha.
i was like lying down in bed
and looking at the BLUE coloured flower
and then i thought of the topic on light
which i learnt last year...
somehow the theory strike me:
whatever objects appear in a particular colour
becos they reflect the colour of light shone on them.
like my blue flower sticker appears blue
is becos it reflect blue light:))
and yea,
wads this gotta do with wadeva philosophy???
yup,i was thinking...
that isnt Man in this case as well??
sometimes the thing which we deny,
the person whom we arent
appear to be who we are...
and that we have to be the 'person whom we arent"
for our lives...
or in other case,
sometimes,
other people assume us to be something
totally that isnt us or
assume that we want something that we dont...
just like the Blue flower...
it is not at all blue,
in fact it is all colours but blue
(since it absorbs all light,reflects blue light)
but we just happily assume that the flower is blue.
sometimes,what caught people very fedup
and helpless is that others keep
assuming stuffs bout ourselves
which in fact arent and in fact those
"assumptions" that made us so disgusted
but so helpless bout it
once we are "branded" with a certain character.
perhaps its the assumptions that makes us wonderful
but heck,
who likes livin in the perceptions of others???
SO STOP MAKING ASSUMPTIONS BOUT OTHERS
COS I AM DISGUSTED!!!!!!!!
yar yar yar.
and physics can be interesting
when comes to linking it with other stuffs:)
and besides the blue flower eg...
its interesting how people work the way physics work..
like Newton's law on action and reaction...
like when u did something
u will in return get something of equal value!!!
philosphy is very SUBJECTIVE,
while science is very OBJECTIVE
and that we can accept...
interesting thesis!!!!!
being BHB :P
i cant help feeling proud=p
hahas;)
i WANT to learn physics well!!!
(though i sux v.much at it!!!
i got an underlined grade in my 'beautiful'
report book cos of my physics CA1
when i only scored 48 marks!!! WTH)
buais ple 0_0

2007-05-29T22:36:00.000+08:00

ytd started off great,
but ended terrible.
im super guilty now:(
anyways...
i found out tt YAN is actually quite NICE:)
yea,ya didnt c wrongly,
YAN is NICE...
i hope i didnt said this too soon...
but u noe she came too boonkeng to
bring mii to sch at 5am
lest i cld not get to sch so early 4 de malacca trip!!!
n she chauffeur(sp??) us arnd these few days
cos of de media camp!!!
she is not tt bad lars...
but she likes to act cute(hope YAN dun read this=P)...
hahas funny sia!!!
i watch les mis(dvd movie) on sunday:)
the last part goes:
"why didnt you kill me?"
"i dont have the right to kill you"
"but you hate me"
"no i dont hate you.i dont feel anything towards you."
"you want to go back to ...(some prison i dunno de name)...?"
"nope"
"for once we agreed."
-i had led my life without breaking a single rule.
but the law doesnt allow me to be merciful.
you are free-by javert!!!!!!!!!
well but he's not free:(
sad.
he handcuffed himself n jump into de river:(
wakao,
when i watched de dvd again,
n i seriously feel like throwing stone
at javert's dumbasshole head thru out!!!
i really think he sux!!!
but of course,
in the end i cant bear to,
n my agitation turned sympathy:(
yea enuff of les mis...
i love de story!!!!!!!!!!!
muacks muacks muacks=P
n heck i haven started on any hw yet,
n u seriously can have my word for tt.
i was supposed to do my e.learning jus now
n my dad snatch de com wif me to play his game!!!
arggh=.='''
n MY DADDY IS SUPER CUTE.
he not act cute but he does super childish stuffs
w/o acting them!!!
ahahahas,cutie pie:) loves:)
n i've always wanted to post this:
da vinci says"set your course on any star and
you can nagivate any storm"
i dun really understand n
CAN SOME KIND E.LIT PLE HELP
ME TRANSLATE PRETTY PLS???
cos this contridicts the image of "stars" in e.lit
as they represents fate...
i mean how can u leave ur course to fate???
dunno...
my whole june hols is packed:(
shyt.
--phantom dominates my world--
weeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!
being phantom despo again=PP
***this post is soooooo CRAP***

2007-05-18T15:29:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here anyone free can do this quiz bout mii!!! click on the leaderboard:)

2007-05-13T17:25:00.000+08:00

i jus typed a super long post and it DISAPPEARED!!!!!!!!
wtf!!!!!
agitated.

2007-05-10T15:48:00.000+08:00

mid yrs.
sian sian sian.
first time in my 3 yrs in cch
tt i seriously tink tt i gna do badly
or even like fail my exams
cos paper really damn damn hard:(
nvm.
update.updatin.
hmms...
not under the infiuence of the july revolution in les mis,
but i think i wna a revolution of my life man.
hahas.
as in like
i think im wasting my life for the past 14 yrs
n i had wasted enough of that.
time files and now that i've realise,
im already in this stage of life
when you know it's suppose to be the most
fun in the entire life
but im not enjoying that.
im passing my days
with studies and more studies
and have been instilling that
i dont like what im doing--studying.
can you imagine wasting your life
for years doing what you actually
think is meaningless?
it's like what my teenage and
im wasting it???
and that i can never
have this period of life anymore when i age!!!
wth.
so.
i used to think about the purpose
our existence
k and now i haven come up
with an answer yet.
but now im not gna let
another day of my life slip by
just like that,
to pass by for the sake of passing by
to live for the sake to complete
my maratthon to death
that is awaiting my at on far end.
i think it is a sad thing
to have a idea in mind like:
when will this kinda life i living end.
i used to be very depressed and
thought that i should not change myself
to suit the environment...
like it's so stupid to change myself
for other stupid pigs out there
who are all out to make a hell out of my life??
but now i think that if i should change,
HOWEVER not for the others to show my defeat
to their nonsense,
but rather to lead a happier life
as in to make the best out of everything.
i will to treasure and live my day
such that i will never regret a single moment
of my life.
im only changing my attitude towards myself,
i dont think i would ever change to suit others
i mean like living my days to entertain others??
NO WAY!!!
im trying to like study......
ER HEMS.
no comments.
as in i WILL NEVER find a purpose
in studying.
as in what shit like gaining knowledge
and bullshit like enriching oneself
are pure dung.
im jus tryin to change study to a kinda entertainment.
DIFFICULT.
but i think studying can be fun
like when i studied with kailin before physics--
we talked and crapped about totally
irrelevant stuffs but yet at the end of
the few hours,
im ABLE to UNDERSTAND very clearly about
moments-the topic which gave me great headache before.
it was indeed fun.
with angeline too!
we wrote on whiteboards and be teachers
re-teaching the whole chapters of chemistry and bio:)
we were like class do you understand this
when there is only the two of us???
hahahahas.
it's fun.
i mean studying is a meaningless thing;
we are just learning some stuffs that early man discovered
and so what lar???
it wont be some time in the future that their theories
will be proven WRONG.
hais.
as i said,
a waste of time.
but you see,
play is also something meanigless,
however, we find joys and pleasure playing.
so.
i think that we should find ways to change
studying as an entertainment to us
and NOT we entertaining the books
giving them pleasure to see us in torture.
hmms.....
i think all that i've said seemed so
far-fetch to be fulfilled:(
nevertheless, i think im gna give
this revolution a try.

CDC is burning my june hols!!!!!!
i wna pon tan!!!

2007-04-11T18:48:00.000+08:00

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!
i failed my bloody physics!!!
not only did i failed,
i fail TERRIBLIY:(
hais hais hais:(
ok,
i watched de phantom of de opera weeks ago le,
but no time update cos bloody loads of tests:(
yup, OMG
the show was SUPER NICE lar!!!!!!!!
love it man!!!
de phantom's voice not bad,
but de christine's voice was not
as good as emmy rossum's (to me)...
de stage effects were superb
n i was like "wa" n "wow" n "omg"
thruout de show lars!!!
de orchestra was beneath de stage
n i tink de actors sing w/o de mike!
woots...im mad.
n my seat was not too bad,
can see d stage clearly
n one gd thing is there is no ple
beside me,
only got ple in front of n behind me:)
good!sit alone:)
ahhhhhhhhhhh
i love de phantom of de opera lars!!!!!!!!!
it gives me tt same kinda feelin
lyk de movie...
at first,
de show would treat ur senses with splendor,
n at de back,
it reveals de phantom's true love...
hahas,n de show sets my thinkin one thing:
wad if one falls so deeply n truely n madly
with another person
but found out tt one does not dare
to love her in de first place
n cannot love face to face
but only at the heart???
nice rite???????
love phantom of de opera always!!!

2007-03-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

Happy
burfdae
tmr
kuku!!!
mumu
loves
ya
de
most
le:)
now
older
le...
cannot
bully
mumu
le
hor:)
*jiu jiu(aka hamster's squeak)*
haha,
i
LOVE
u
kuku.
mumu
loves
u
most
le:)

2007-03-11T19:42:00.000+08:00

this post is soooooooooo lag!!!!!!!!!
i actually published it long ago,
but it got problem!!!!!!!!!!!
here it goes:
todae is fun.
gna miss changi chapel...ER...?
hahas, i tink i meant de time we spent
facillitating there..
or de slacking time there perhaps=)
pictionary is fun!!!
n ivory my pictionary was so SMART!!!
den something v.funny happen during de game.
i was supposed to draw a chameleon(duno sp)
n i drew a curly sorta thingy
which is meant to be de TAIL,
but i think ivory either pass her inference tests v.well
or her imagination is SUPER...
OR RATHER this is a case tt shows i draw
SUPER ARTISTICALLY=)
guess how she got de ans correct by sayin
tt u drew a chameleon by my drawing???
she thot tt de curly thingy was its TONGUE!!!
-.-'''
diao!!!!!!!!!!!
n at de end of de day our score was highest!!!
tt goes 2 ivory who draw v.nicely
n thanks to her tt she can understand
wad de heck i drew;)
wad a compliment man!-.-'''
hahas.
den we tok about de brian games again.
took HELL LONG to figure de whole thing!!!
*kem pa*
de someone said i lagger...*bu shuang face*
haha JKJK la!
i realli SUPER LAG i admit=P
hmm, dats perhaps de last time
we 7 facillitators and tt v.nice teacher(n i still dunno her name)
got together n play games.
reena, kathy, siew yee, ivory, zhixiong, wen han
n tt teacher r all V.NICE ple!
facillitating de s2 r SUPER tiring.
i was sooooooooooooooooooooo tired ytd
tt i felt lyk dying!
though we didnt do much stuffs,
but it was real tiring!
hahas i gg _ _ _ _ _ _ _ tmr=)
play hangman, guess d word.
haha, jus lyk tt time mr soon played
this with us during e.geog to tell us THE ans.
n where i m gg tmr is THE ans...
haha.
mr soon's question was:
if de climograph shows a tropical monsoon forest,
den y de temp is below 26 degrees???
well he went _ _ _ _ _ _ _
n we were all ??? *qn mark qn mark qn mark*
haha.
de ans is tt places r affected by altitude=)
get it?
hais, so long-winded,
i gg genting lars!!!:)
hey genting i gg play ALL
de THRILLING rides tmr!!!
jus u wait!!!
i gg scream my throat hoarse
n curse all my s3 tests!!!
yay, cant wait man.
im not sure if i got de guts 2 play ALL of dem anot.
*i can* ;)
i jus wna shout,
n come back mute...er..abit xaggerating lar=P
hais sian...
i wna watch de phantom of the opera n
jesus christ superstar n
les miserables badly!!!!
but i NO TIME:(
haha, countin down to 31 march:)
i m coming phantom!!!
or rather phantom is coming to me!!!yay.
till we meet at de esplanade on tt dae:) =) :) =)
i CANT WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
1. facilitating is fun todae
wif other fun facilitators=)
2. i cant wait to go genting tmr
n challenge my guts=)

2007-02-22T19:23:00.000+08:00

ohh well...
i did super badly for my physics.
n for those hu r lyk "wow, hu gt full marks"
or "how much u gt?"
or jus setting their eyes on everyone's papers
to c if dey did beta dan demselve,
or de tests simply had proven others to
be a much stupid person dan he/she.
stop gasping "wow" n give dat kinda of,
"wow, y u score beta dan me?"expression,
i CANT stand it.
lots of ple dun reali lyk ya,
n now i noe de reason y.
i cant stand it.
NOT bcos ya scored so well n i merely pass.
I SERIOUSLY DUN MIND HAVING TESTS EVERYDAY,
I DUN MIND GETTING A MERE PASS,
BUT I REALI DO MIND THOSE COMPETIVENESS
DAT AROSE FROM PLE COS OF DE TESTS.
i mind those inferiority n superiority
dat tests had brought about,
i hate de "i want to score beta dan u"
n "i wna BEAT u in my next test"
or wadsoeva.
i hate de insulation dat built up
bwt classmates from de tests.
i hate de insulation dat built up in me
dat separates me from being ok with tests.
n dat now i despise myself for no doing well,
for scoring sucha f.bloody results.
i dun wna to.
neva have i wanted to let results affect me,
but apparently, this seemed too far-fetched.
n for those hu are so eager to
poke their nose into MY @$$,
i scored 16/30.
wowowowowowowowow!!!
"wow, u so dumb argh?"
yea so??? i am not as "slack"...
i had neva post my results for any of my tests on my blog b4,
n now i did, hell do i care now how dumb ple think i m,
or if my results happen to b 1 or 2 marks higher,
hell care if dey wna burnt out bloody loads of midnight oil
to make sure dey score beta.
well. my @$$? i dun give it a damn.
take it dat im kind to evoke ur motivations.
"inspiring" huh?
i shall still hav to study for de upcoming tests,
but i m realli tired
de sickening side of ple they brought about.
lit,geog...blah blah blah...
tests r suppose to help us cope beta with our 'o's next yr,
but apparently,
they also helped to bring bout doubts
n competitiveness among us.
i hate all these. STOP.

2007-02-17T19:34:00.001+08:00

hais, de stupid blogger beta is so de damn stupid!!!
i prefer de old blogger lars!!
de new one so mar fan!!!
sign in wif such a long username!!!
anyways MY BLOG IS SO DEAD!!!
nobody tags=( *sobs*
hais haven done any hw yet except
de online quiz...
all thx to eunice.
she called mii,
asking me to help her sign in cos her com got prob,
then i msg her de qn,
den i also help to do de qn,
de she called me asking mii how to do,
den i said i dunno,
den she said"huh.how,cos another 5 min quiz end le"
den i was lyk wad de 5min n i haven start!!!
den i quickly go do...
den tt's all...
sian larr!!!
dunoe wad to update,
i guess u ple r sick of reading posts
complaining bout all de tests in s3
n feeling all stressed up n stuffs...
i felt de same way,
but i thot of posting smth diff...
n btw can u ple pls TAG b4 leaving???
thx=)
well...actually things happened around me,
de things tt ple did,
n de events dat took place,
made me wonder how shud i react to all dat...
for eg, ple shun from some others
bcos we dun lyk dat person or wadsoever,
we ran n kept a dist from dose ple,
n dat left me wondering y ple(us)
reacts lyk dis...
y aviod toking to some ple...
is tis de way ple felt bout me b4,
is tis de reason ple shun me in de past...
i had known de feeling of being outcast,
but yet,paradoxically,
i was doing wad other ple did to me in de past,
selective of who to tok,
n hu to stick to...
now, i would jus follow suit--
i guess i m afraid dat doing de opp
of wad we do would only
make me odd one out.
so i did de same,
they run, n i ran too.
i cld c dat some ple r tryin hard to mix in,
but they failed--
we made them failed.
mayb they hadnt had de feeling of being left out.
i m not saying i lyk de person,
n de personality dat puts ple off...
i jus wna noe wad makes them to react
dat away n y they dislike de person so much
cos i wna noe if dat is de way ple think of me
in de past...
now dat i got a grp pf friends to tok to,
i really treasure them..
n hope it lasts of course.
hmm...
n i feel bad doubting my friend
n sort of avoided her for a little while...
even wad i was worrying bout
is true(but i figured out dat it was not),
i shudnt shun her n shud still
treat dat person de same way,
as i have no rights to be prejudiced
against wad i doubted...*er hems*
anyway it is jus a "xu(1) jing(1) yi(4) chang(3)".
n yar c.lit lesson.
sian man!!!
n de teacher was toking bout "yi(4) jing(4)"
tt was meant to mean smth lyk
de feeling de poet was experiencing
in dat kinda circumstances
n we gota feel his fustrations n
put ourselves in his shoes n
in tt kinda situation n environment
in order to understand his plight.
damn shyt.
i DUN FEEL ANYTHING!!!
stupid lars!
d poet was lyk away from home or wadsoeva
n was feeling depressed n all shyt stuffs.
wad can we "feel" from dat???
d poet was jus being emo
n depressed for a moment,
lyk wad all of us will experience,
n after a while,
life goes back to normal again,
wad to feel so sad???!!!
but if it is for les miserables
or the phantom of the opera,
it would b a completely diff story.
u would enjoy a treasure every moment
u put urself in de characters' shoes
n felt their plight!!!
lyk de phantom's despair n denial,
his masquerade, his bottled up feelings
to which he uncapped only in front of christine...
wanting to break free from his masquerade,'
but de mask on his face bind him tightly to it...
this is smth dat i jus wrote n
had neva written b4,
phantom of de opera
jus has dis magic to make u
uncover n feel diff stuffs everytime
u put urself in dat "yi(4) jing(4)"...
les mis also...
like i happen to tink of a line
in de musical dat javert said
when valjean let him go
despite de chance of killing him...
javert said"once a theif forever a theif,
what u(as in valjean) want you would always steal"
well...i was thinking dat it was a sacarsm saying
valjean's sordid past, being a theif,
but then, giving it a second thot,
he was saying dat if valjean wanted his life,
valjean would still steal it...
like although he let javert free,
he has taken away javert's life
n made javert die eventually..
yea, javert commited suicide.
u noe, he still "killed" javert in de end indirectly,
stealing his life in a sense...
n perhaps javert who was denying
valjean kindness refused it
n take his life away himself...
javert's sucide made me feel de most
in de story.
valjean too...
he was born hating de whole world
n was hated by de whole world,
but die loving de whole world
n de whole world loved him...
wad a successful soul he had been...
wadeva,
though les mis has dat little part
dat promotes de greatness
of god n dont really believe in gods,
but i take it tt god is jus a symbolism
of greatness in dat story=)
... ...
hmms...
tts all pls tag b4 leaving!!!
byes. dun miss me in de long wk=P

2007-02-17T19:34:00.000+08:00

self detention

2007-01-26T19:59:00.000+08:00

haha. today i give myself "self-detention".
cos i didnt do a single sum of de A.maths
and have to hand in todae
and so i stayed back to finish de whole thing!
i so guai rite???
but by de time i complete de whole thing is alr lyk 6.00pm???
hahas,i bet ms verrily tan went home alr lahs!
n TANBAOFANG is NICE enough to keep me company
till 6.00!!!
thanks bf!!!
and thanks for keeping me entertained with all de craps!!!
i laugh untill my stomach v.pain!!!
todae i lauf damn alot lehs!!!
cos after tt,
we walked to de bus-stop with eunice
and started crapping n gossiping again.
i lauf untill my stomach can burst lar!!!
and yar...
noe y i took hell long to do my sum???
cos...*kem pa*
i didnt er..listen to de teacher in class
cos whateva that babbled out from her mouth
just cant go into my head!!!
i was listening,
but nth went in.
i dont bloody undestand what she saes la!!!
so when i did my hw,
i have to 'yan jiu' all over again
and rack my brains cos i hadnt got
a clue as to wad de sums r asking!!!
n i have to clarify smth.
im not bad tt i did not do my hw.
i had to stay back for beijing ppt
n tt sux trans didnt turned up!
den bf had to help do some of de guys stuffs
n tt took alot of time!!!
wad de!!!
den i went back at only 6 smth
and ji lao shi is nice to give us a lift to de bus-stop:)
dat sux trans is selfish irresponsibe n only tink of his stup self!
then today got bio test,
so ytd must study for the test,
dats y no time to do hw...
so today i stayed back to finish though de teacher
might have alr left le...
at least i hand in my work b4 de deadline
which is todae though ms tan may
only see my work on mon...
todae is so crappy n funny...
i wna watch 'chicago' todae!!!
i wna bake cookies this wk end but i doubt i hav de time:(
making i bake de dae b4 val's dae
n give to my dear fellow respect-ian frwens!
hahas,dun get tt wrong idea,
MY HEART ONLY BELONGS TO DE PHANTOM:)

2007-01-24T14:36:00.000+08:00

ok my previous post is bit er herm...
a bit 'ah-lian' erm herm.
now is film-making lesson,
n no one is listening...
-o-zzz
sian...
have to be more refine huh?
yea must use more civilised words
like shakespears n wadeva...
like wherefore art i in this **** lesson???
=.='''
deny thy sh*t n refuse thy s*it.
wadeva lah!
so sian now!
havent have my lunch yet lehs!!!!
nmy maths is [s]FFFF[/s]
my eyes are really [s]cork[/s]
siao...
blahs...this fri got bio test..
tmr still need to stay back for beijing ppt:(
tired.

maths test

2007-01-21T19:15:00.000+08:00

k high time i update=)
i watch 'Grease' ytd:)
slacking my wkend...
humm...actually i v.de sad now
cos i gna FAIL(not flunk,its worse dan tt) my maths test!
*sobs sobs sbos*
haiz... ...
what to do???
i tell u wad de f. happen to de test.
i got cork eye n read de f. instructions wrongly!!!
WTF
den bcos of my bloody cork eye,
i express all my f. ans to de f. wrong dp!!!
WTFFFFF
hell:( i gna fail...
it indeed made my confidence level 4 maths DROPPED like hell..
i dun hav confidence in maths anymore le:(
i hope de teacher lost my paper
like mayb his/her dog ate it up
or de hse on fire n den burnt my paper!
i dun wna fail!!!
n de f. thing is dat 3rp de ple
all pro de,
all full marks den i fail
very de f. de!!!
haissssssssssss
bloodly maths...
whenever there is time limit,
i cant tink properly de...
den so many numbers
i can die...
shyt
can those f. setters give us bloody more time???
hais.
den on fri,
i got de beijing ppt thing,
then xinyi came back!!!
their laptop v.cool de...
de me n bf start to play with her com
lyk some sua gu...jkjkjk
den me,bf n xinyi
tok for hell long...
den i wait 4 de f. bus 31
wait until also f. long...
wtf,
i hate wilmer!!!
he sux!!!
says stupid stuffs,
so old le lyk
no brain liddat,
always tok f. stuffs
n make a f. clown out of his f. self.
go die!!!
now im so sad(no vocab le)
cos of my bloody maths test!!!
hais...hopefully
de teacher really lost my script...
hais lessons r super boring
EXCEPT BIO!!!
bio de most interesting le.
chi sux.
i dun even noe de meaning
of all de words
and dun even noe how to bloody write dem!!!
hais...de prc in my class v.pro lehz!!!
hais...*zi bei-ing*
i tink my results gna...
TOUCH WOOD!!!
sianzzzzzzzzzzz
now i hope its hols
cos my dad borrowed les mis de
original version!!!
but de f.thing is i no time read,
den he returned le!!!
WTF...
tired of studying le.
stupid maths test
and my bloody cork eye!
i wish i cld digg out my eyes and throw
them at the test paper!!!
gross..pervertic
cos xiao xuan call mi
*drum rolls*
FIRST CLASS PERVERT!!!
=.='''
hais sku sux.
de yan asked us y do we study...
den we all act guai n sensible
sae to gain knowledge
lyk so de lame!
we study 2 waste time man,
waste our youth...
cos ple b4 us all lost their youth
to study,
n so mus we!!!
so lame can!!!
hais still haven finish my compo!!!
my bloody @$$ compo!!
with de stupid storyline...
so pri sku like...
hais...
'grease' is ok..quite nice,
but i love phantom of the opera most!
de music of poto is very rich n nice!
storyline oso v.captivating!!!
les mis i watch on youtube,
not bad,
v.nice oso!
quite similar to poto
as it makes u tink stuffs
n is v.chim oso!!!
to end de post,
i shall quote a quote from victor hugo,
which my dad showed me in de papers:
"40 is de old age of youth,
50 is de youth of old age"...
a quote about old ple.
tt's all.
byes.

2007-01-08T18:37:00.000+08:00

k.i shall update.
sch starts.
sian.
not sian coz nth to do,
but sian becoz got many things ned to do!!!
today de video is touching.
i cried!!!
im sadistic BUT i very emo n very nice one,
see this kinda things,
lyk de young acheiver's seminar
i oso cried lyk siao.
hahas.
i tink if i were de guy,
i wld rather die!
but i do admire his courage to go on.
d struggle he faced is not those ple out there
hu see him wearing coloured lenses,
but den it is rather those he gives himself.
it needs hell courage to overcome it ONESELF WITHIN ONESELF,
but d life is his when he got thru it:)
he said smth lyk
god creates all of us n love us all...
well its the faith dat keep ple going...
he said dat god love him,
n dat he's thankful...
i tink that he shud thank god
for taking away his figures,
giving him posses more strenght
n willpower dan other ple.
hmm...im not a religious person.
i dont really believe in god though
i do hav my own religion.
i tink that religion is just a place
to keep our faith
if we cant find another better place to keep it.
but i tink dat we shud hav faith within ourselves...
yea craps.
i oso dunno wadd i writing.
byebyes.gtg:)

2007-01-02T13:58:00.000+08:00

happy new yr ple!!!
n i in pain now cos i got pus...
poor me:(
n i watch my fair lady on arts central ytd
frm 10pm to 1am!!!
my dad lyks it,
but i still prefer poto duh!!!
'my fair lady' is coming to s'pore oso,
but seriously if u wna go watch
a musical live in s'pore,
PHANTOM OF THE OPERA is
still a beta choice of course!!
*tt goes w/o saying*
tmr sku reopens liaox...
dun quite anticipate it though:(
hahas, but yea
i gng b de same class s my pri sku frwens!!!
hahas after 2 yrs we meet again!!!
hmm...actually i've sort out
some stupid thots in my head le..
i used to worry bout stuffs this yr
but i guess now,
those thots r unnecessary
n ridiculous:)
hmms...
chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi!
*lolx*
heys!!!ple listen up!!!
i've finished reading les miserables!!
but its d abridge version one lars...
clap ple,
wad an achievement!!!
i tink d story very d nice lehs!
i watch a show les miz(nt de movie n musical version)
on arts central a few days ago frm 12mn to 2am!!!
wow!!!
but les miz is nice
n it makes me cry!!!
i watch on youtube
n cried once
n de show on arts central
n cried at de last part:(
i tink they way victor hugo
protrays everything
esp jean valjean n javert
is sinply superb!
hahas 2007 is here n i shall
wait for 3 more mths to my poto show:)
wondering wad holds for me
this yr in a new class...
but well...
shant worry too much lars.
i shall tink anymore n dun try to hold on
to wad tt doesnt really matters...

2006-12-25T14:32:00.000+08:00

hohohoho!Merry X'mas!:)
argh..sku reopening le:(
sad case:(
I LOVE LES MISERABLES ALRIGHTS!!!!
I LOVE VALJEAN N JAVERT BOTH!!!!!!!!!

2006-12-18T16:45:00.000+08:00

HOL R SO DE DAMN BORED!!!!!!!!!!
I ROTTING AT HOME LE!!!!!!!!
EVERYDAE EAT N SLP N DO NTH!!!!!!!!!
I SAID I WNA READ, N STUFFS B4 HOLS,
N NOW???
IM TOO LAZY TO...
I C DE WORDS I GET SO SIAN LE..
WASTE MY TIME IDLE-ING!!!
GO NET ALSO DUNO WAD SH*T 2 DO!!!
WASTING MY TIME,
NOT DOING ANYTHING...
I BET I GNA REGRET
NOT MAKING USE OF DIS TIME
WHEN SKU REOPENS,
WHICH IS LYK DRAWING
CLOSER N CLOSER:(
HAIS...SIAN..
I BORROWED SO MANY BK,
END UP READING ZERO!!!
HAIS..GOING TO EDIT MY PROFILE>>>
IF NOT REALI NTH 2 DO LE...
SOME1 TELL MI WAD 2 DO DURING HOLS PLS!

phantom of de opera lyrics

2006-12-13T16:54:00.000+08:00

im posting de bg music de lyrics here:)
the song title is "the phantom of the opera"
by alw in de musical "the phantom of the opera"...
er quite obvious...
'In sleep he sang to me
in dreams he came
that voice which calls to me and speaks my name
and do i dream again
for now i find
the phantom of the opera is here
inside my mind'
'sing once again with me
our strange duet
my power over you
grows stronger yet
and though you turn from me
to glance behind
the phantom of the opera is there
inside your mind'
'those who have seen your face
draw back in fear
i am the mask you wear
it's me they hear
your/my spirit and my/your voice
in one combine
the phantom of the opera is here/there
inside my/your mind'
'in all your fantasies
you always knew
that man and mystery
were both in you
and in this labyrinth
where night is blind
the phantom of the opera is here/there
inside my/your mind'
hahaha
super nice:)
hols r super SIAN
n I M BORED TO DEATH AT HOME

2006-12-11T19:03:00.000+08:00

i've just went 2 zoey's blog...
i was sort of shock 2 c her write bout those stuffs she wrote..
mayb i dun noe her well enuff.
but well...
i guess shes only let her mind run wild
out of sheer boredom in de hols...
i tink i've oso changed in these 2 yrs...
for de beta???
well,much lyk for de worse.
in my pri sku,
yea,i've encountered friendship probs
n 'boycotting'(sp)dat left me wandering round
de sku lyk some wandering spirit...
but now i guess,
de 'wandering' feeling is much much worse.
environment n circumstances
make ple change...
n im a victim of dat...
sometimes..even if theres company,
i feel lyk i can behave more at ease w/o...
sometimes though we r in a clique(sp)
we noe dat we r jus stickin 2gether
jus for de sake n for show dat we hav a company.
sometimes, one may b 'invited' into wadeva,
but yea,its jus courtesy.
even one reali join in de talks or plays,
one noes dat its very awkward...
i feel dat theres as if a wall in bwt every1
i talked to de past sku terms...
i might wna very badli 2 talked 2 sm1
or jus anibody
but i jus dunnoe how...
i tink i've already lost de ability
to communicate 2 ple le.
n ple dunno how 2 communicate wif me le.
glad dat its all over...
but hell,
i still hav got 2 more yrs 2 go.
i hope dat next yr will b a brand new start
wif all de new faces n all...
end of one masquerade,
or just purely the start of another???
well...
shiqi n kathy will b in de same class s me next yr.
my pri sku friends.
sets me wonder if they,too, hav changed.
hmm...
today i went out with my sis.
went 2 ps at 1st
den go bugis take neos.
we took HELL LONG 2 edit de photos
cos theres no time limit.
damn tiring sia.
den we went 2 national library.
n FU*K i cant find les miserables!!!
wtF!!!
k..
there r now alot of borrowed books home
n i dun tink i can get 2 read every one i borrowed:(
there r:
1)write up on romeo n juliet
2)some greek n rome myths(???)
3)woman in white(i tink dis 1 jus borrow 4 show,hell thick!)
4)the master and magarita
5)the last day of a condemned man(by victor hugo,cant find les miz,so borrowed dis)
i tink im not able 2 read all of those.
but i wna read LES MISERABLES!
for those bloody idiots hu borrowed de bk,
pls bloody fu*k return it!
i watch les mis on youtube.
very de nice!
but den de movie version
of jean valjean
is much much much much much more
nicer dan de muscial one...
i dun really lyk de singer.
but de musical javert is GrEaT!!!
well,in de movie,
i jus HATE HATE n HATE javert thru out,
but only at de very end when he let jean of
n commit suicide..
jus dis action
led me to PiTy him...
but de in musical,
javert is struggling thru out
n we can c n noe his true feelings
behind dat cold unfeeling face thru out,
not only at de end.
de movie left epponie(sp) out...
but de musical made her another miserable character.
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ple may tink its 'out-dated' or
wadsoeva their bird brain tink,
for me to lyk musical n broadway,
but well,
these r CLASSICs!!!
classics dat will neva eva die even after a thousand yrs.
n well,
i made a mistake...
alw isnt re-producing de sound of music
into a movie:(
*SOBS*
hes onli reproducing it
as in on STAGE:(
i heard dat musical is a g8 triumph in London:(
n can dat 'jiu kong'
stop spoilling de song 'memory' by alw!!!
its an old song in de musical cats.
i want les mis!
de movie,de musical n de book!!!!!!!!
i lyk de lyrics in one of de songs in les mis musical:
"somewhere beyond the barricade is there a world you long to see"
well,yes.
somewhere beyond all these masquerades,
i long to see truthfulness n sincerity.
but too bad its blocked,
blocked by all de barricades of realities...
n beyond all these realities
lies dream...
a dream "when hopes r high n life worth living"...
jus hope dat life WONT kill a dream i dreamed...
i <3>
i gna watch jesus christ superstar
at least once in dis hols!
i lyk de songs n rythem...
but s for de lyrics n storyline,
theres no ned 2 treat dem seriously.
its artistic
n a piece of art.
no ned 2 give it much thots lyk
de phantom of de opera.
HELL!!!
n I BADLY NED TO WACTH POTO!!!
byes

2006-12-06T18:22:00.000+08:00

i went escape 2dae n met zhiyang!!!
hahas,unfortunately i didnt bring my hp,
if not i'ld contact eunice 2 go there...
she lives around dat area anyways:P
oman, de rides r fun,
but all de thrilling ones were not opened up 2 public 2 play:(
den i went white sands library...
u noe wad bks i borrow???
hahas, y'all wont guess it...
its ShAkEsPeArS!!!
hahas,
i borrowed one "write up on romeo n juliet"...
u noe Y???
cos i veri not "shuang" de cch teachers only teach us FaTe,
dat four-lettered-'f' word.
n since i spent half a yr of my yOuTh on dat play,
(n i dun reali lyk it...)
might s well read up more bout wad i've been learning...
i mean,
i've alreadi noe de plot n characters,
it wld b easier understand more themes beta...
i wld lyk 2 understand de themes more
cos i CANT STAND FATe...
hmm...initially,i got alot of passion 4 chi~na stuffs,
n so i go 2 a chi~na sku,
hoping 2 get more chi~na(???),
but apparently,
things didnt really get according to wad i wna,
n i tink...
sad 2 sae,
de passion is dying out...
i miss Lin Lao Shi!!!
shes such a gd chi teacher
n shes de 1 hu got me so interested in chi culture n all...
:(
i doing c.lit is bcos i cant do e.lit...
hope dat de passion will come back when i tk c.lit lahs..
but how i wish e.lit is doing phantom of de opera..
i mean de musical version.
de original novel by gaston leroux is abit er...
quite unrealistic...
but de muscial is at least realistic,
n de phantom's deeds r justifiable(sp?)
by de limits of wad a human can do...
n de musical is SUPER MEANINGFUL.
i tink alot of my childish n immature thots have change
after watching de show.
it really makes me think alot...
"intellectually" stimulating:)
hahas, not de meaning in eunice's dict-.-'''
if ya shud wonder y i lyk it so much,
den let me tell ya dat
it changed my life alot,
u cant imagine how much its impact on me,
n what it holds to me...
its boundless.
dun tink im crazy...
its diff from being a fan of those pop idols...
being a fan of those r pure a waste of time...
wad can those ple teach ya???
"wow wow wow" n stuffs???
wad can they do 2 u
except 2 make one having some very wrong perceptions...
waste of $.
but well,de phantom of de opera is diff.
it teaches.
it helps u reflect.
on life... n realities...
2 very big words...
realities...
it a struggle 4 many...
n de 'life' im toking bout here
is not 'oshi''s 'how 2 make de best out of ur life"
or "how 2 lead ur life" "theories".
its MUCH MUCH MORE DAN DAT!!!
those r quite s*p*r*i*i*l compared to it.
if ya sae " ways on how u can succeed",
den de phantom of de opera to me will sae
"reasons y ple want 2 succeed"
or "wad does success means"
or "wads ur purpose of succeeding".
well...de "ways 2 succeed" r wadeva,
but wad does success means???
it means to get de best of everything.
why???y do ple want to get de best of everything???
cos dey wna WIN,
dey want to show ple their superiority.
why???y do ple wna b de best???
cos back 2 REALITY!!!
WE r VICTIMS of reality!!!
we r pure REALISTIC N MATERIALISTIC.
so do think twice b4 foksaking many things 2 "succeed".
reality...
i did not come to noe its meaning frm "The Outsiders",
but much frm phantom of de opera.
realities.masqurades.
we r all wearing masks.
life's but a masquerade.
agree???
as de lyrics goes:
"masquerade,
paper faces on parade,
hide ur face
so the word will never find you"
and
"true IS false"
"who is who"
"you can fool any friend
who ever knew you"...
so true isnt it???
hu can proudly sae he/she is not at all guilty
of being fake???
hu!!!???
yinghui,
i noe u r struggling...
every of us is.
but is sad dat others dun even noe
de struggle dey r in...
phantom of de opera opens too much,too much...
hmm...mayb i gna read up les miserables,
another literature bout realities n stuffs...
there is one line in les miserables musical(i watch it on utube)
"life has killed a dream i dreamed"...
by de character,fautine...
but dun get too depressed by it cos
there is another one that goes
"even de darkest nite will end n de sun will rise"...
huh...
so get thru de dark nite
n everything will b alrite...
well...actually if one is passive,
den their lines will go
"even de brightest day will end n nite will fall"...
well, de choice is up to one.
de sun is there as long as we BELIEVE...
de endless darkness is there if one holds this thot...ple cant help u if u cant help urself by perishing de thot.
i <3 them:)
i watch 'cats' ytd.
didnt get much of its theme:(
n its super "intellectually stimulating" as in those in eunice's dict :P
haha im so tired now
after de whole afternoon at escape.
i screamed my whole throat sore:)
hardly get a chance to scream
so go there mus scream all i can!!!:)
byes.im realli tired.

2006-12-05T17:46:00.000+08:00

hmm...at least 2dae isnt dat SlAcKiNg:)
i HaVe BeEn slacking ALL DAY LONG AT HOME
ever since i came back from beijing...
everydae i wake up at 11.30am,
eat lunch and den SlAcK de whole afternoon,
either on com, or jus IdLe around de hse-.-'''
SUPER SIAN
den in de evening eat dinner,
after dinner, watch tv, den slp!!!
wad super sian can!!!
wads more, i DIDNT WATCH MY PHANTOM OF DE OPERA!!!
i only watch it lyk twice in dis hols so far???
hais:(
but anyway,
today is SliGhTlY BeTtEr...
-woke up s usual at 11.30am
-eat lunch
-do my chi bk report( n its lyk shyt!!! im practically bullshyting!)
-go swim wif my sis...er much lyk PlAyInG in de pool:P
-make coffee 4 my sis n eat chips together:)
-bath(1st time in hols i bathe in de afternoon,not at nite:))
-n here im blogging.
at least i finished de bk report...
one worry less:)
k i beta plan my hols now:
-watch phantom of de opera
-do all de phantom-related stuffs
-finish master n margarita(its gna be de 3rd time i get dis bk from de library,
n i haven finish de book!)
-read les miserables
-if still got time,mayb i'll read up pride n prejudice(to find out wad captivated my sis so
much bout it! jus lyk my my initial reaction bout POTO:))
but de most ImPt thing is de phantom opera stuffs!!!
hais,still gta meet up 4 de bj ppt:(
gng escape tmr:)
i wna sit de RoLlEr CoAsTeR!!!!
haha, de one i sit in cn was super fun n SUPER SADISTIC!!!
my heart nearly drop out from my mouth!!!
hahas, byes:)

1st job

2006-11-30T21:55:00.000+08:00

3 things to update:
1) i watch pride n prejudice ytd
it was o.k..
in terms of movie,
i still lyk les miserables beta:)
i lyk jean valjean character...
but i do lyk mr darcy(pride n prejudice)'s attitude
n elizabeth's playing hard to get him...
they both jus dun wna admit their true feelings
due to wads mention in de title,
pride n prejudice of course...
hmm...didnt really hav a thing for romance...
n i didnt lyk de phantom of de opera so much
becoz its a love story,
but rather,
it has shown me others far in-depth things
that i've neva thot b4,
n which i seriously need 2 give a thot to.
hmm, les miz...
an exciting movie,
n do make ple(me!!!) lyk valjean...
n i do pity javert too...
mayb de musical(which i dun hav a chance to watch)
wld show their inner struggle beta...

2)i had a bad dream ytd...
not a nitemare,
but its quite scary...
i dreant dat there is this place,
n in there,
there is an enclosure(???) that allows ple to go in
4 wadeva reasons i dunno...
den inside de enclosure theres a cave or smth sort of...
den got ple fell inside or
smhow get inside...
den... inside, there is cobra...
i didnt get to see de person being atttacked by de snake,
but i was able to picture de gross scenes in my mind,
esp hearing those shrills n all...
it gave me chill...
i cld picture those fangs ripping de flesh,
n de excruciating pain...
being with a slimy n cold creature...
gettin' ur face all fu*k up...
not knowing if those fangs wld get into ur eyes
n dig dem out...or poke into dem???
i think i saw in my dream de person after de attack
when de snake threw de person out...
or smth similar...
i cant rmb my dreams well...
it sadistic...
it do give me creeps at de thot of it now...
yew...

3)today, i go work!!!
as in i gota job n go work...
wif hl, xiao xuan n huixin
i earned my 1st $25 dollars in 5 hrs...
quite easy...
we ask ple to sms mr bean as de most popular brand
den give dem a keychain:)
theres a sense of achievement when one successfully get ple to vote,
but de feeling of kana rejected,
esp wif 'dao' faces,
u really feel like giving dem a punch,
n its quite 'paiseh' too...
not bad lar...
at least its an experience:)
den after our break time,
yunting come join us:)
but after an hour we finished or job le.

haha...hmm...mayb i shud watch pride n prejudice again...
but i reali WISH 2 WATCH LES MIZ AGAIN!!!
hell, dat movie is nice!
s 4 pride n prejudice,
i find de cast gd looking...
pretty n ...
oh well...
wna watch phantom of de opera again too!!!
n well,
i've got 2 visitors here,
annie n brenda
who chance upon my blog on de blogger homepage..
hahas...
n they seem to b de few hu r keeping my tagboard aLivE...
thx:)
anywaes,
to annie n brenda:
nice to hav ya here,
n cheer up larhx:)
alw phantom rulz!!!

2006-11-27T16:19:00.000+08:00

haha, i watch de phantom of de opera again!!!
and this time with my sis:)
haha...den immediately after the show ended,
we watch hamtaro:)
hmm...there r much symbols in the phantom of the opera
n i shant interpret them now...
hmm...todays huixin bdae...
didnt went out with dem 2 celebrate...
sry:(
anyways, a very happy bdae to huixin!!:)
hmm, bf jus called me
n she said her appeal is sucessful...
hmm...all de best to her in her 8 tri class!!:)
she gna top de sku with 8A1s de next 2 yrs:)
well...not really looking forward to sch next yr...
SiAn!!!
i cant believe i gna face **** n ****
blah blah blah....
let mi crap now alright,
i dun wna think much bout next yr...
hmm...crapping starts:
i tink de period of which de phantom of de opera sets in de movie
is really quite nice...
its in france...
n i dont know wads dat period called...
de girls r jus pretty-er
and jus bit witty-er
dan now.
and de guys r jus so gentleman-
n so wadeva
dan now...
i wonder if de period of time is de same as de pirates of caribbean...
de costumes seem de same...
oh wadeva,
i noe y'all dun understand wad crap m i crapping
but nvm.
haha,
it sort of gime a dreamy n romantic feeling???
blahs
i'll update next time bout de phantom of de opera....
very tired now..
i lyk emmy rossum's VoIcE!
she can go so high
n at de same time,
keeping her voice so SwEeT!!!
hahas...
patrick wilson's not bad oso...
n gerard butler...
though he cant reach a couple of notes,
but his voice really brings out de emotion very much:)
he'll make u believe hes de most miserable n sad
n fustrated n seductive(???) character...
<3 their voices.
de thing i lyk most in de movie is still de 'masquerade' part...
so many ironies,
n so much it brings.
i'll blog bout it in future...
byes.

i dreamed a dream

2006-11-25T22:00:00.000+08:00

watch this ple:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1qSB4Jxcfcs
hmm...hayley westenra sounds so sweet......
n shes very young only!!!
a teen...

watch this too:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=imRYKwyzXaU

and can les miserables come to s'pore too!!!
hahas,cant wait to catch my phantom of de opera!!!:)

les miserables quiz

2006-11-24T22:30:00.000+08:00

doing quizzes...

You're... "Do You Hear The People Sing?"
Will you join in our crusade? Who will be strong and stand with me? You're all about righting wrongs. And making a mess. And yelling a lot. What's more, you're contagious. What's Your Les Miz Themesong?

A charming innocent, taken in by a scoundrel; mother of Cosette, and the story's first casualty. Though you have moments of spirit, you're mostly far too nice for your own good.

Which Les Miz Woman Are You?

Which Les Miserables character are you?

You're Fantine, a loving but tragic mother.
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im just sianx...
haha...im fantine???
shes so MISERABLE alright!!!
i dun wna end up so tragic lyk her lor!
shes a character,
to me, so far
has been very dissapointed with de world
n has given in to de realities of life...
" There was a time when men were kind,
And their voices were soft,
And their words inviting.
There was a time when love was blind,
And the world was a song,
And the song was exciting.
There was a time when it all went wrong...
I dreamed a dream in time gone by,
When hope was high and life, worth living.
I dreamed that love would never die,
I dreamed that God would be forgiving.
Then I was young and unafraid,
And dreams were made and used and wasted.
There was no ransom to be paid,
No song unsung, no wine, untasted.
But the tigers come at night,
With their voices soft as thunder,
As they tear your hope apart,
And they turn your dream to shame.
He slept a summer by my side,
He filled my days with endless wonder...
He took my childhood in his stride,
But he was gone when autumn came!
And still I dream he'll come to me,
That we will live the years together,
But there are dreams that cannot be,
And there are storms we cannot weather!
I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living,
So different now from what it seemed...
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed..."...
oh...so sad:(
i choose not to be like her...
i dun wna give in so easily like her...
n i hope i wont b shown all de cruelty of reality like
like wad de world has shown her...
i dun wna see,
i dun wna face!

cats

2006-11-21T20:17:00.000+08:00

miao...i watched CaTs todae:)
nice, but phantom of de opera nicer:):):)
byes

back fm beijing

2006-11-19T14:08:00.000+08:00

hahas, back frm beijing finally:)
i miss my bed!!!
2 weeks w/o parents:)
hees... things werent s bad s i thot:)
yups...
de weather is very cold there,
but i guess its still durable:)
make new friends,
and among is xinyi from fg.
same name n surname as one of my pri sku frwen:)
everything is fine...
except de fact dat i hav 2 face 2 more yrs of wilmer's nonsense
which i badly had endure during de trip...
hahas...
after 2 peaceful yr in bn,
i wonder what im gna receive de next 2...
haiz...
crapped alot during de trip wif bf n xinyi:)
bf is really cRaPpY alrights!!!!
but shes fun 2 tok 2 lahs!!!
cant believe wad we actually tok bout!!!
some reali sicko stuffs!!!
real good memories 2 bring back here...
an escape from de problems...
n although im seriously IRRITATED
n quite pissed by er hems during de trip,
but well,
at least one can crap n 'being crapped bout'
w/o having 2 care or 2 fake??!!
hmms...
i regretted not buying more stuffs there:(
bf bought alot lah!!!
n d others oso:(
nvm.
hahas,
i watch Evita ytd...
another musical by alw:)
its supposed to b touching,
but i wasnt in de mood 2 cry ytd.
hmms,
phantom of the opera is still nicer!!!
n yar, wna shout out to de world dat:
i have got de tickets for de phantom of de opera musical!!!
at de esplanade on 31st march 07!!!
muhahahahaha

streaming results

2006-11-10T13:02:00.000+08:00

oh well....
streaming results...
my god,debi!!!
can u apply 4 9sub???
not many ple i noe went 2 9sub lehz...
i wna u b my desk partner next yr!!!
oh well...
u noe i have some reasons not wanting 2 go 9sub...
now im in dat situation which i seriously dun want 2 face...
2 more yrs!!!
i have 2 ******* for 2 more yrs...
now not much ple go 9sub
n baofang is appealing 2 go 8tri...
i was contemplating alot during dat opting day
cos im really loss,really...
now im ???
y so few ple same class as mi?
lyk only yiyang,xumeng n bf hu is appealing out???
WTF
2benevolence 4eva...

i lurf phantom

2006-11-01T16:36:00.000+08:00

my thrid post...
sian...
wna post
i love the phantom of the opera!
i love the phantom of the opera!
i love the phantom of the opera!
i can only love him...
but nth else...
the movie just change my life so much...
so much of my perspective...
and so much of my superficial thoughts...
i guess im liking les miserables too:)
the music os also very nice and de story line is very sad too...
sad stories have more impact on ple,
and i read from somewhere that
perhaps that is de point shakespears saw
n thus starts writing tragic stories...
almost all his plays come to a tragic end,
n that perhaps make him so famous...
but the tradgey of the phantom of the opera
n les miserables just touches the heart
n affect how one feels...
i guess shakespeareans' plays r more to the abstract side...
paintng one theme so direct,
or either so many layers below the paint that
i can hardly noe what hes tokinh bout...
still bothered by de cdc script...
argh!!!
i hope that time can allow me to do just a bit more stuffs...

cdc script

2006-11-01T16:26:00.000+08:00

oh man...
i gng 2 beijing liao,
but my grp de cdc script still haven even start yet!!!
i cant use computer in cn,
n how m i gng do de script
when i m onli available dis week???
we r supposed 2 hand de script 2 yingwei by 10nov,
and hell...
im in cn in 3nov liao???
dat means i onli hav tmr to do with de grp???
hell??
wad 2 do???
zheng ming sae meet tmr...
but hell noes de time n venue???
omg...
so vexed now...
n they dunno how limited my time is left to do it...
hais...
can we hand in they script when sku reopens???
haha..i doubt so..
so hell wad m i supposed to do???

phantom of the opera

2006-11-01T15:54:00.000+08:00

k... i've jus finished watching the phantom of the opera...
woah...
in the first few scenes...
i thot dat i wldnt lyk it after quite a long time since i last watch it,
but...the last few scenes just rob my heart totally...
the kiss from christine to the phantom...
the phantom breaking the mirror...
the placing of the phantom's musical box on christine's grave...
the rose remaining red...
and the black signature ribbon tied to the rose and the ring attached to it...
they simply bring out so much...
and i was so much captivated...
those heart-wretching music and lyrics
just bring ur emotions on a roller-coaster ride...
and giving u the feeling of going down at the highest point of the ride...
thats the feeling...
kiss from christine...
meaning i love you...
returning of ring to phantom...
meaning im sry i cant be with u...
but there are much ironies to the ring...
the ring is first given to christine by raoul...
yet the phantom took it away from christine
and gave it to her as a wedding ring...
then, christine return it back to the phantom...
ironic???
the ring not only rep the phantom's love,
but raoul's as well???
what does it mean when the phantom gives raoul's ring to christine?
and what does it mean
when christine returns raoul's ring to the phantom???
the phantom breaking the mirror...
meaning i wna break away from all these superficialities im surrounded by
all the years...
the placing of the phantom's musical box on christine grave...
meaning at last when christine is dead can the phantom
lies beside her forever...
the rose on her grave...
meaning...im always beside you all the years n havnt stop loving u...
the rose remaining red...
meaning our love last forever when everything in the world faded...
the black signature ribbon tied to the rose
meaning...i've always tied myself to u,
pricked by u thorns,
but im still there binding around u...
the putting on of raoul's ring on the rose...
meaning...???
actually...im not sure of its symbolism yet...
but i guess...
i hope i can be raoul n give u all he can...
the flame that goes off at the end of the movie...
meaning the phantom had also ended its life,
and that the light of his candle has been blow off...
as perhaps christine is always his light...
and that when christine dies...
his light is extinguished as well...
christine is his reason to live(or being alive)...
and now that shes dead...
he...sees no reason to live s well...
omg... hes always there guiding her...
protecting her like a guardian angel...
he loves her no matter who shes with,
where she is...
and during 'the point of no returen'...
all their passion just surged...
and the unwillingness and regret in christine's eyes to unmasked him...
the bravery of raoul and his love for christine
made him faced all the danger that threatens his life....
raoul loves christine too...
but still,
his cant be compared to the phantom's...
the phantom and christine had a love that is so unspeakable
that 'i love you' can explained...
in the last few scenes...
the phantom told christine
"christine, i love you"...
christine just kept quiet...
she knows that that four words just cover too much...
much much more than what 'i love u'
simply means...
she dont know what to say...
saying 'i love you too'
back to him didnt make much sense...
her love is already there with him...
and that is such a sad and painful thing for both of them to part...
they both dont want to separate...
but they know they've past the point of no return
and had to...
oh man...
what tragic love story made even more tragic by
those alw's music and those romantic lyrics by charles hart n richard stilgoe...
i think the movie had too big an impact on me...
i rly thot i wldnt like it after hearing those songs umpteen times...
but the charm and magic that lies in it just make glue my mind to it...
the charisma of the disfigured phantom
and the charm of the beautiful christine...
the contrast of beauty and deformity...
beauty differs much from ugliness...
but the movie just can make the two 'co-exist',
giving it a different light...
i love the movie:)
i guess i cant get over it even in the test of time...
loves alw:)

les miserables 10min video

2006-10-31T20:33:00.000+08:00

nth 2 update leh...
so sian nowadays...
mood affected very much by the les miserables video
on you-tube:)
watch!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IvkjLSkGS9g&mode=related&search=

buy clothes

2006-10-27T16:34:00.000+08:00

hais, today went bugis buy clothes...
spend so much $,
my <3>
hais, very sian leh...
dun noe my parents will scold me for buying those clothes anot...
l8er dey dun lyk...
wadeva lorx...
hey, i finished one essay on the phantom of the opera liao:)
watch some clips of les miserables on you-tube ytd...
so de damn blurr lar!
dun noe how 2 c!
n yar, got one SICKO cum tag my blog.
the tags r so the damn SICKO that i deleted dem...
i think dat person is really smth not rite up dere leh.
i quite certain dat de person is a 'she'.
'she' was lyk using 2 diff names to tag n worse still,
'zi wen zi da'!!!
sicko rite???!!!
tag one tag,
den replied de tag 'she' tagged using another name!!!
i tink i saw dat same person on debi's blog...
(on debi's tagboard) 'she' is lyk saying she is a "girl" n sae smth bout debi's links,
den 'she' is lyk faking a "boy"
n replied bout how debi shud change de links...
obviously de same person rite!!!
i tink de ple damn SICK lehz...
tag dat " i love you" in my blog?!!
u tink i 'bai chi' izzit???
woah i so over de moon dat got ple love me lehz -.-'''
WTF fuck off!!!
hey watch this:
dis y i pity insp javert:)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFr6nk4ry4Y&search=les%20miserables

last day of sec 2

2006-10-26T16:46:00.000+08:00

hais, 2dae last day liao...
*weep*
hais...so 'yi yi bu she'...
wna thx amanda.k n see, bf, yunting n gladys for de presents:)
den me,manda,yurong,bf,gladys,debi,yunting,yuling,yinghui,michelle,eunice went to plaza sing:)
den we ate at burger king,
and i dun dat de burger i ordered is actually beef...
omg...it tasted really WEIRD!!!
den at the burger king there super funny...
we bu shuang one worker there cos he showed a very 'kam pa' face when we requested him to clean up the spilled drink.
den we started clearing our own tray to show dat the worker there very 'dang dae'...
den we started to crap hell loads of crap...
saying that we shud queue to clear our tray to show de store manger that his worker is not doing his work...
hahas...
still sae we wipe de table some more:):):)
den we rly clear dat ourselves lorx!!!
den amanda said that we shud return de unopened sauce to the counter...
and she actually did!!!
damn funny!!!
the store manger was lyk 'chuah deo' when amanda returned the sauce:):)
amanda was saying "do you want these cos we haven open dem"(or smth sort of)
and the manger was lyk "k...thank you" n gave a very werid smile.
i bet its de 1st time in his life dat ple actually go return those things to him lar!
haha...
his expression is lyk those "victim" of the 'just for laghs' tv show...
den he started looking at us,
den i saw dat he felt ??? when he saw yunting go return de tray herself...
hahahahaha:):)
i guess he must b wondering dat cch students r so the damn guai n disciplined lar!!!
den we go take neoprints,
and hell we took about half an hour to edit,cut and 'fen' the neos...
den we went to carefour n michelle wear the barney mask n started to sing the barney song-.-'''
and amanda said that micheele want to rob her when she saw her wearing dat...
amanda, yurong n michelle also started to take pics wif de soft toys there,
n they rly take de soft toys as any g8 superstar kies!!!
they were lyk,
i wna take photo with this,
i wna tale photo with that...
haha...so fun:)
hmm....todae last dae in sku...
so sad i'll miss ya ple!!!
n do rmb me:)
all the best to amanda n hanle in ya respective JCs:)

bored

2006-10-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

feeling super bored now...
so i wna crap!
so ya can ignore me:)
i rly tink dat i'll die studying shakespears,
though mr tan j.s said dat e.lit can help improve eng n gp in jc...
i mean i can hav my own t.s.m lit at home
n at anywhere kies!!!
i love phantom everywhere, everytime:)
the phantom of the opera is indeed a g8 piece of lit:)
i m glad i had uncover dis treasure:)
super nice...super touching
n super mind-provoking!
come study t.s.m lit!!!
take the phantom of the opera
n change ur whole life-.-
hahas...i told ya i m in a crappy mood now:)
well,
i quite like les miserables oso:)
i like jean valjean's character!!!!
hes such a nice guy
with such a big heart<3
i love my phantom's charisma oso!!!
y must such nice personalities be found on in those being discriminated???
i tink dey r 2 super nice ple...
despite their 'outer' n 'inner' struggle,
they managed 2 preserve de very-rare goodness dat one can possess:)
i mean ple c them as 'bad' guys or wadsoeva...
but hell???
i jus love them kies!!!
actually,
i m quite mentally-not right 2 like fictional characters 2 such extend=P
but hell,
dats wad a piece of g8 lit will do 2 u:)
i mean they do reflect human nature...
n i'ld sae, realistic,
unlike shakespeareans play???
i tink im suan-ing shakespears here=P
sry shakespears,
dun get offended kies???
i wld like 2 learn ur language(shakespeareans'),
so i will sound very chim-.-
but i dun tink i can da-han dat...
i tink i ned 2 explore more into phantom of the opera,
n start exploring les miserables...
i rly tink they 2 r de g8 classic of all times:)
super nice,
super good lit:)
do learn them.
i mean lit is not a sub dat can be taught...
we hav 2 go explore ourselves...
phantom of de opera rly change my life:)
i love it:)
i love the movie05 exceptionally!
all the symbols and all r all in there:)
plus nice songs n lyrics 2 heightens de whole sensation.
splendid!!!
spendour!!!
bravo!!!???
hahas...
im still very bored now lehs...
i was so de damn sad 2dae can!!!
i mean we r gna get seperated:(
i was like cant take it???
i was feeling that there is still so much to...
and there is only like 2 days n there we r,
separate class liao???
i've still got so much to...
argh!!!
im so sad:(:(:(
hahaha craps:) :(

streaming

2006-10-23T19:08:00.000+08:00

2dae so sad lar...
i dun wna go 2 dose computers n submit de streaming form...
we r lyk separating???
n i didnt really how close we r,
untill we rly stand beside it...
its a such a hard decision...
i'll miss u ple:(

budget life

2006-10-22T18:03:00.000+08:00

my dad got blog!!!
cool sia:)
muhahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha:):):):)
to dad:
let me tell u wad is a life with budget,
or rather, a life of budget.
budget is not $,
is an investment or sth sort of.
if budget to u is pure $,
den all that our life,
we revolve round $
n leed a rather materialistic life...
living 4 $...
everything is $,
n dats wad we live 4...
its so sad...
so once we no $,
we die.
is $ really de purpose dat we live for,
n dat w/o it we'll perish???
i mean is to me WTF.
i mean we r being controlled by dose papers
dat we create by ourselves???
i mean hows life lyk w/o $...
lyk debi said,
it wld b in chaos
as according to debi,
"$ is sth we created to maintain the order of our life"...
it is supposally OUR SLAVE,
but now,
we have become ITS SLAVE instead...
thats a sad thing...
n yea,
got carried away...
go back to budget...
we r constraining de amt of $ we have,
so theres enuff to go round,
n dat we wont strave 2 death...
we constrain our $,
n dats is budget...
in a sense,
its a type of 'material' as well...
"materialistic" gives us an impression of wanting $
n spending $ on 'material' stuffs lyk branded stiffs n all...
but then,
having to 'budget' our life,
is in a sense "materialistic" as in
we r all concerned with $$$...
yeah...wadeva...
but then,
budget...
investment...
to me,
i think there r other budget to life other than jus $,
friends???
it there a budget to it???
well...
i do not have an ans...
i used to have an ans...
there r not supposed to a budget with friends...
as in how much u wna give ur friends rite???
but then...
its also materialistic here...
budget with friends???
WTF!!!
and a budget is also how much u can give urself(apart from being jus constrain)...
lyk to me there is DEFINATELY NO budget to mt dear phantom of de opera.
absolutely no constrain as to how much i wna give in:)
i think les miserables is gna b my next phantom of the opera:)
i lurf de story man!!!
JEAN VALJEAN IS A SUPER NICE MAN:):):):)
k...
i lurf thid sort of lit...
if i were 2 study shakespears,
I'LL DIE!!!!
i have an urge2 write sth suddenly:
"virture itself turns vice, being misapplied"...
ok,dats from r-n-j,
but thats wad i wna tell insp javert...
n thru insp javert,
victor hugo showed the dark side of virture...
i hated javert in de beginning,
but i somewhat pity him in de end...
oh...got carried away again...
hahas...
my dad rox:)

2006-10-21T12:32:00.000+08:00

hi ple,
yea, i watch les miserables ytd
n its very nice:)
i didnt watch de musical version,
i just watch de movie--those conversations n actions...
i lyk de story:)
it bout a good man,
a really good man
but was wanted by de law,
cos he committed a crime when he was young.
n guess wad crime he committed???
he only stole food for one family
and that he was caught and made to suffer for almost 20yrs.
and made to suffer so much for his little crime.
im not saying that stealing is acceptable,
but i mean,
he was only a kid
and was very poor n straving
n that being made to suffer for 19years is too much.
he claimed "i was treated like an animal" then,
n thats very sad.
when he is sort of release 4 a short period(but dats mot permanent cos ple still wna catch him back,4 wadeva reasons,i dunno),
he met a couple who showered him with exceptional kindess
that made him changed from a harderned guy to a "new" man...
he den bcum a mayor of a city...
but yet ple still wanted to hunt him down n put him 2 death sentence
for de crime he committed when he was young.
and of course many things unfold...
n if i were to write out the whole story plot,
my hand will break.
de movie is 3 hrs!!!
super nice movie
bout forgiveness.
forgiveness is the theme i felt from de movie.
n i lyk de quote that kindness is able to "ransom ur fear and hatred":)
jean valjean, is de character i was toking bout:)
he is a super nice guy!!!
n there is an irony that insp javert,
a law bidding man is a bad guy
cos he is so heartless
n is super inflexibe!!!
all he noes is 2 catch those ple who broke de law,
but he fails 2 c dat all that kindness n contributions
jean valjean had made 2 ple is more dan enuff 2 redeem his crime already,
moreva, his crime is not those murder or arson or those serious types ones...
yet insp javert still wna to hunt jean valjean even after many many years...
i think is bcos that javert thinks that he is rather useless dat
he was not able to capture jean
even if jean is only commits a minor crime.
he wna 2 challenge jean's capability...
well de ending is much twisted n unexpected...
insp javert let jean go,
but javert go commit suicide himself.
i think he had relised that he had lost to himself,
n all the fultility he had lived for so many years,
he live for law n for order,
but it makes him a heartless person
which is much more a serious crime...
wadeva,
it a nice movie.
i hope i got 2 watch de musical...
hopefully beijing will sell it cheap:)
hmm...my results r pretty much unexpected
cos i really thot dat i'll do very badly based on my SA2,
but i think my SA1 n CA2 pull me up alot ba..
still thinking 2 go triple or 9 sub...
yups...
i watch hamlet oso,
during dis week.
though shakespears is considered the most impt person
2 lit,
but i really can feel anything about his works...
hamlet is a madman,
n dats all i understand.
i wld perfer alw n les miserables:)
take care benevolence!!!
i'll miss ya!

no more depression

2006-10-19T15:36:00.000+08:00

i've jus deleted my unpleasant posts,yeah!
n i've figured out dat i shant think of those stuffs anymore
cos theymake no sense.
I WNA STAY HAPPY:)
i shall not write those sad n stupid stuffs in my blog,
cos dis blog is from dis moment,
specially delicated to alw n the phantom of the opera!!!
i love de phantom!!!
hahas.
for my eng,
its a total flunked!!!
wad de!!!
de stupud report writing!
i got lyk only 50 or less percent only!!!!
fu(k.
haha.
lucky for my essay:)
i seriously thot dat i wld fail,
cos i practically was lyk blogging during de paper.
i doubt de writer knew wad i writting
cos i jus let wad i feel all out...
n wrote some crappy stuffs inside...
but heng lor!!!
de teacher understand me:)
still correct much of my crappy sentences
into proper eng n convey wad i wna sae:)
heng heng heng!!!
n de thing is i dun even noe how 2 spell de director's name
n i just anyhow spell...
wadeva.
de marker oso dunno:)
well,
i wna thx the phantom of the opera.
n of course my phantom!!!
i simply love him.
muacks<3
yea...
wad 2dae..
hmm, after sku got meeting 4 de sino xchange stuffs
n we r supposally 2 practice sing 4 super RETARDED songs!!!
actually,
we didnt practice much,
cos we seriously cant bring ourselves 2...
we listened 2 d music over n over again
n de worse thing is dat we dun even noe when 2 join in de music.
retards.
hais, checking marks 2mr:(
i DUN WAN to...
total flunk.
sh1+!!!!
n i shall stay happy:)
for de the phantom n 4 chip-n-dale:)
i watched hamlet ytd.
i noe its story plot,
but i dunno wad themes it wna bring out.
its 2 me,
quite meaningless...
i mean it has got no meaning...
or rather, i dun understand d theme lor.
oh yar, wna thx hl n xiao xuan 4 dat fun lunch ytd:)
cheers:)

lit

2006-10-17T18:15:00.000+08:00

its my 2nd post
n i m in a bad mood now.
hais hais hais.
i think literature can keep one off with some of de unecessary thots.
one can think n think n think very hard bout a particular piece of work
dat one wld probably hav not enuff 2 think of other things.
i wna watch hamlet 2dae,
phantom of the opera tmr,
les miserables after tmr,
n adolf hitler if i can find time to:)
i dun really understand lit alot...
n not gng take lit next yr
cos i really can absorb wad de lit department teach.
i think that lit is a subject that cannot be taught.
the teacher cant teach u,
for eg, romeo n juliet is controlled by fate,
or those order n disorder stuffs.
we hav 2 feel them ourselves...
lit is pratically wad we feel,
even it doesnt make any sense to the teachers.
for me, i think that r-n-j is stupid.
n ignorance of romeo n juliet made dem suffer
the consequences of their selfishness.
they knew the 2 hseholds r enemies,
yet, they claimed they fell in love at the first sight.
and den, even more ridiculous,
they made vows 2 marry right after they met,
after the party???
i mean,
u dun even noe de person well
u can fall in love with him/her???
stupid!
juliet made a wrong choice to agree to marry romeo so quickly.
i bet she regrets badly 4 falling with a idiotic moroan.
ple may sae,
no, r-n-j love each other so much dat ther is no room 4 regrets.
oh well,
they only met for 4 days,
n b4 any of dem can get a chance to regret,
they are already in their graves.
pure impulsivity i wld sae.
ok, i noe y'all r very sian with regards to this stupid play.
ok i shall sae no further 4 r-n-j,
lets move on to the phanotm of the opera!!!
i love phantom seriously.
i think he is rather seductive
n many girls wld prob fall in love with him,
if not for his looks.
hes a pure genius
n cld offer wad a gurl wans...
he gives himself when comes to love
n dat though the love 4 christine can b fulfiled lyk r-n-j,
their love is far more intense. deep.
i dun think their love is stupid n blind.
well, they dun ned a reason 2 love of course,
as u noe,
love doesnt ned any reason.
he loves her,
spares a thot for her.
unlike r-n-j,
did they spare a thot 4 one another???
what love is 2 r-n-j is but physical pleasure
n imarturity(duno spelling).
perhaps, i really feel the phantom's love towards christine
very intensly...
i believe they two r one.
though in the end,
its a sad thing dat christine left n leaves the phantom a shattered heart,
but i believe they still love each other,
no matter where they r,
no matter when christine is wif raoul...
their love for each other hasnt die.
he is still there guiding her till her death,
guiding her even when shes wif raoul.
he knew she neds him.
there till death...
even after their death.
theirs is a love that lasted for an eternity.
theirs is a love that can only b fulfiled when death.
i think he prob kills himself after learning her death,
cos she is the reason for him to be alive,
believing that she can make him living...
i believe christine loves him too.
she is jus physically wif raoul,
but emotionally wif phantom.
being together physically is nth g8 at all.
so wad?
bodies are but a shell,
n they r empty w/o soul.
her soul is wif the phantom.
and its the soul that makes us who we r.
soul is where we all true lies.
ai yah!!!
CHRISTINE LOVES THE PANTOM
AND THEIR LOVE IS FAR MORE MEANINGFUL, DEEP N INTENSE ONE,
compared to de retarded romeo n impulsive juliet.
hais feeling much beta after all these lit stuffs:)
im not taking lit next yr though,
cos i dun wan my passion
to be put off by those boring lessons
we hav to endure in sku...
whoo...feeling much beta.
thx phantom:):):):):)

pirates of d caribean 1

2006-10-13T22:37:00.000+08:00

hais, exams over...
killing my brain cells dis period, doing nth.
haha, my dad jus borrowed "the pirates of the caribbean-part one[d black pearl ship or sth sort of] frm d library.
hmm...i lyk d languague...
here are some lines form d script...enjoy n do think bout them...
-One good deed is not enough to redeem a man of a lifetime of wickedness.
-what a man can do and what a man can't do. For instance, you can accept that your father was a pirate and a good man or you can't. But pirate is in your blood, boy, so you'll have to square with that someday. Now, me, for example, I can let you drown but I can't bring this ship into Tortuga all by me onesy,
-Look! The moonlight shows us for what we really are. We are not among the living, and so we cannot die, but neither are we dead. For too long I've been parched with thirst and unable to quench it. Too long I've been starving to death and haven't died. I feel nothing-not the wind on my face nor the spray of the sea, nor the warmth of a woman's flesh.
-Begun by blood...by blood undone.
-The entire ocean. The entire wo'ld. Wherever we want to go, we'll go. That's what a ship is, you know. It's not just a keel and a hull and a deck and sails that's what a ship needs but what a ship is....what the Black Pearl really is...is freedom.
-A moment, please. Elizabeth? I just want you to know I, uh, I believe you made a very good decision today. Couldn't be more proud of you. [while he talks she throws down a makeshift rope and climbs out into a waiting boat] But, you know, even a good decision if made for the wrong reasons can be a wrong decision.
-And a dishonest man you can always trust to be dishonest. Honestly. It's the honest ones you want to watch out for, because you can never predict when they're going to do something incredibly... stupid.

new blog add

2006-10-11T16:55:00.000+08:00

haha my 3rd blog add:)
hmm...my 1st blog add is super lame,
my 2nd blog add is super long; ple ask me, i oso 4get,
now my l8est add...
ok lar...
related to phantom of the opera can liao:)
if u shud watch the movie,
"devil's child" is mentioned in it...
yeah yeah yeah...
actually my add is supposally "devils-child.blogspot",
but den dunno which idiot go take de add,
so hav 2 change de 'l' to "1' lor...
wadeva...
hip hip hurray!!!
exams over liaoz...
well, tmr not counted as exam wad...
so eoy is actually officaili over 2dae
n i totali flunked every paper!!!
argh, so g8 man!!!
WTF
haiz...i gna do veri badli dis time...
hopefully, it is not bad until cannot go triple science...
i wna take bio,
but i dun wan lit...
e.lit is killing me with r-n-j,
and the stupid idea of the f-word--
FaTe!!!
hell noes which idiot in the lit dept wan us 2 learnt fate!!!
so fu(king dumb!!!
i mean, everything is free-will,
and all the consequences r results of our own choice,
be it gd or bad...
NOT FATE...
stop teaching us to blame all those bad things dat befall on us as a result of our own choice!!!
i mean when romeo killed tybalt,
its free-will dat he wna do so cos he veri 'bu shuang' wif tybalt wad!!!
how can we blame it on fate???
so all de muderers jus kill every1 n sae fate us dem 2 do so lar??!!
stupid logic!!!
n i m f***ing enuff to support de idea of fate in my exams!!!
wow...for grades...wad can i do?
mr lee didnt even touch on free-will,
call me how to write???
when i was doing the notes 4 e.lit d day b4 exams,
i was so pissed wif myself for writing 3 pgs of such crap,
against my 'conscious'....
wadeva...
btw, its FREE-WILL dat i wrote fate,
n not fate hu asks me to do so!!!
n i dunno where i came acros dis quote
which is pretty much interesting...
here it goes:
"Fate is for those who are too weak to determind their destiny"...
HOW TRUE!!!
stop being influence by d 'propoganda' of d lit dept
dat everything is fated...
wont life be meaningless in dat sense dat
u r living not 4 urself, but some omipotent up there???
well well well...
gna watch my phantom of the opera many many times...
i love the phantom!!!
n i hav sorted out dat
i do not reali lyk d actor(gerard butler),
but rather the character,phantom, himself....
i love alw:):):)
omg...
well...alw was lyk a bit of 'micheal jackson' style(dunno spelling)
in his youth...
wadeva...
i lyk his music,
heck care about his looks...
but of course,
i tink he didnt go 4 plastic surgery lar!!!
the 3 men hu made a diff in my life r:
1)Adolf Hitler...
2)Andrew lloyd Webber...
3)n of course ALW's phantom:):):)
though i not gng 2 take e.lit n history next yr,
im gng 2 study adolf hitler myself(since de sku dun wna teach)
n of cousre de lit of phantom of de opera:):)
during hols perhaps???

f*uck video

2006-10-09T11:50:00.000+08:00

hey ple go this website!!!
teach u bout de word fu(k,
so next time u noe wad u toking when u say it...enriching huh???
www.starterupsteve.com/video/the_word_fuck.shtml

love quiz

2006-10-09T11:26:00.000+08:00

k...by 'popular' demand, i shall do de quiz bout???
1.single, taken or crushing?
obvious. single of course!
2.are you happy with your life now?
erm...only when i m wif my phantom of the opera VCD???!!!
3.when you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast?
haven have de experience yet.
4.have you ever had your heart broken?
hmm...not as in BGR.
5.do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
what circumstances can there be???
6.would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
hard to say.
7.have you ever talk about marriage with another before?
nope.
8.do you want children?
er..yup...
9.how many?
2!!! good things come in pairs:) pair of twins perhaps??? 1 boy, 1 gurl:)
10.would you consider adoption?
er...if i am not married.
11.if someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings? reading his private blog ba..
12.do you enjoy getting into relationship?
no experience.
13.be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did?
no ex.
14.do you believe in love first sight?
yes... i mean i have to like de person 1st b4 going into a r/s wad.
15. Are you romantic?
i hope i can b practically romantic.
16. Do you believe you can change someone?
no.
17. if you could married somewhere, where would it be?
OMG!!! the phantom's underground lair of course!!!
18.do you easily give in when you are fighting?
yes.
19.do you have feelings for someone right now?
does the phantom count??? not as in gerard butler, but de character himself...er???
20.have you ever wished that you could have had someone but you messed it up?
dun understand de qn
21.have you ever broken a heart?
not in the sense of BGR.
22.if one day your best friend fall in love with the girl/boy you deeply in love with, what would you do?
let the guy choose himself.
23.are you missing someone now?
the phantom??!!
now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs.write down their names in the list below.tag them in their blog to let them know.
hais, almost all de ple do de quiz liao...
den those hu haven do den do lor.

phantom of the opera in spore

2006-10-04T16:43:00.000+08:00

Phantom of the Opera set to return to Singapore
Andrew Lloyd Webber’s "The Phantom of the Opera" is making a return to Singapore, after its hugely successful debut here 12 years ago.
Broadway’s longest-running musical which next week celebrates its 20th anniversary will play at the Esplanade from 23rd March 2007.
The Singapore season which is part of an Asian tour will see American Brad Little playing the Phantom, a role he has played some 2,000 times.
Describing himself as the luckiest man in the world to be doing something that he loves, Little says "It’s going to be very exciting – everyone has said how wonderful the audiences are here... which always fascinates me. Every country seems to have their own personality as far as their audiences are (concerned)... Those that have performed here say ‘you’re going to love Singapore’".
The Singapore season of "The Phantom of the Opera" will be Directed by Harold Prince who has directed and/or produced more than 50 musicals, plays and operas including, the premiere productions of "Evita", "the Cabaret", "A Little Light Music" and "Sweeney Todd", just to name a few.
According to Tim Mc Farlane, Managing Director of the The Really Useful Company which is co-producing the show in Singapore, the production will involve more than 130 cast, crew and orchestra from the USA, UK, Australia and even Korea.
22 containers of what will make up a spectacular set at the Esplanade will be shipped from Australia and other countries to Singapore, including 230 amazing costumes.
The producers believe the show in Singapore will be better than those in New York or London, having been continually worked on, improved and perfected.
David Atkins of David Atkins Enterprises says, "The Phantom of the Opera is arguably one of the most successful musicals of all time and DAE is proud to be associated with what we are sure will be its best season ever in Singapore."
Tickets will go on sale from November for "The Phantom of the Opera", a heart-wrenching story of the hideously disfigured Phantom who falls in love with a young singer Christine and devotes himself to creating a new opera star while exercising a reign of terror over the Opera House’s occupants.
- CNA/yv

PHANTOM OF THE OPERA SIMPLY JUST RULZ!!!!!!!!!!!

eoy

2006-09-29T16:44:00.000+08:00

fine...i shud be studying now instead of blogging...
hais stay back to study wif debi n yunting n zhujun...
erm...yea... "studying"...
actually we jus listen to debi n her stories n they were damn funny:)
haha...debi is super lame can!!!
yea...but debi, i seriously prefer ur RnJ version
compare to shakespears'...
hmm...though we didnt study,
its a pretty good de-stress session after de papers.
hmm...today i screwed everything up...
for chi, my 'bu fa zhi tu' that 'tu' i all write wrongly:(:(:(
die, dead, dead meat.
hais...for eng, its sort of 'ku xiao bu de'...
i screwed up my phantom!!!
hais...i doubt the marker will understand me:(:(:(
im seriously tink i gna fair very badly:(
its EOY n i was doing a very 'chin chai' job...
or rather, i dun even noe wad i writing...
these papers today determined my life
and i sort of give up/let go of this chance...
im really very very scared now.
i tink i wrote crap...
how???
i was just writing and writing
and then i duno wad de fu*king hell m i scribbling...
hmm..i just write and write and write w/o thinking
and i m very scared wad i write is irrelevant...
my dear phantom...
wo dui bu qi ni
and im sorry i screwed u all up:(
i feel so bad...
my 'si han' was a total mess...
everything is in a total mess and my whole world jus aint rite.
my whole world is jus spinning and sping and that
it isnt gng my way
n i wna it to stop.........
after hearing the story by debi on
the expiry date thing...
i spent my whole bus journey thinking of that...
when is my expiry date?
its so sad that we are jus like the toy...
manufacture by duno who and waiting to get expired...
everybody will have an expiry
and it that all fated???
i duno...
i m pro-free will...
and i hate the idea of fate...
i hope dat i can really have the time to find out
the meaning of everything
n to get my meaning of my life rite...
y do we expire?
how do we expire?
when do we expire?????????????
so sad.....
how i wished i were in Sec 1...
everything then seemed much meaningful,
and everyone seemed much happier.........

i.a lesson

2006-09-21T11:34:00.002+08:00

haha,intergrated asethetic now:P
hmm...finally updating now:)
yea, a few days ago i was in Anthea's car,
n i heard d song sang duet by jay chou n fei yu ching...
haha...its quite lame...
yups, but i tink fei's voice is much nicer than chou's lar!!
but just dat its quite piang lar:)
i tink chou had a hard time singing can:P
sry to all chou's fan.
hmm, eoy is very very very near liaoz,
and i was so slack:(
hmm...i have yet to know wad sub com i wna take next year,
so...see first lor........
and yea, i seriously wish eoy can be OVER ASAP can!!!
hers's a list of what i gna do after exams:
1) watch the phantom of the opera for over hundreds time*its a must!!!*
2)finish reading the master and magarita(haven finish,hav 2 re borrow frm library)
3)study the phantom of the opera..er?! yup,do all the lit essays for it:)
4)see if i can rent other ALW's musicals and watch them:)
5)read all the internet articles i saved under my favourites:)
6)GO SHOPPING, BUY NEW CLOTHS!!!
7)hmm,slack...
8)listen to the phantom of the opera all day long:)
9)blogging:):):)
10)think of my life:P
yea...so many things to do!!!
argh, exams!!!
well, R-n-J.,..stupid lit..
4 days!!
4 days, they meet, married, spend a nite with each other and then die!
SO LAME!!!!!!
hmm...i am trying to make myself like R-n-J...
and it's like M:I:4!!
i only like the part when R-n-J love each other despite their families enemity
and it is ironic that they die to end the hatred between the two families...
they ended their love to end their hate...
quite.....ironic...
yup, but the phantom of the opera nicer!!! *obviously *
exams exams exams...
i still cant get history into my head:(
yea...i am like so suay can!
my B.D is on the geog paper...
* get my hint ple?*
haha...good luck for y'all exams n love the phantom always:)
hey, i love chip-n-dale too:):):)

thinker's quiz

2006-09-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

Thinker quiz : what your results say about you
Some people have a strong preference for one style of thinking, and find some skills come more naturally than others. Other people tend to adopt different thinking styles in different situations.This test gives you an idea of what your current thinking style or styles are. But remember - the brain is a very adaptive organ. You should be able to improve your performance in any one of these categories with practice.

The Renaissance idealThe leading thinkers of the Renaissance were not just experts in their own field. The renaissance scholar was expected to master all branches of knowledge.With his insatiable desire to know everything, Leonardo da Vinci is often held up as the ideal Renaissance man.
You are an Existential Thinker

Existential thinkers:
Like to spend time thinking about philosophical issues such as "What is the meaning of life?"
Try to see beyond the 'here and now', and understand deeper meanings
consider moral and ethical implications of problems as well as practical solutions
Like existential thinkers, Leonardo questioned man's role in the universe. Many of his paintings explored the relationship between man and God.

Other Existential Thinkers includeThe Buddha, Gandhi, Plato, Socrates, Martin Luther KingCareers which suit Existential Thinkers includePhilosopher, Religious leader, Head of state, Artist, Writer

hey,quite true...i luv philosoplical stuffs:) ok...i shant b BHB:(

equality

2006-09-07T21:56:00.001+08:00

hmm, mayb i sounded 2 harsh jus now,sry 4 any offence...
i mean dats wad i felt there n then...
n now, given a second thot,i tink i jumped in2 conclusion 2 quickly le.
ok..i've recovered from dat grumpy mood...
i noe dere is not enuff time...
well, i hope y'all wont mind if i left d post dere cos i 2 lazy 2 delete
n dats how i felt right then...not now,
so dun carry dat rant to now...its all over.
n yeah, 2 amanda, toking bout equality...
jus wna post a veri short comment on dat:)
my definition of equality OF MAN(not d equality in my previous post),
is dat all man on earth is being treated equally.
like d blacks r not d slaves of d white,
or *impt* WOMAN IS NOT SLAVE OF MAN!!!
i mean i cant stand it when woman is treated s slaves 4 d man,
n worst still, sex slaves!!!
wad de!!!
man n woman r equal...
no gender is better or stronger dan another.
we r all gd at our own strength.
n yeah! i hope dat dere is NO AUTHORITY of one being over another!
n i read in "the master and margarita" (n i tink said by some holy charater)
that "authority is an act of violence"
quite true.
i mean mr soon is such a nice teacher,
but b'cuz of his authority over us,
he's not treating us how a 'young human' shud b treated...
i mean when smtimes when he called us 2 stand up and den sit down,
n up again, hes lyk treating us lyk dogs or even worse...
hes such a nice teacher n i c no reason 4 him 2 treat us lidat.
n dat, we r not equal,
he sees himself status higher dan us...
yea, we shud respect him,
but he oso ought 2 respect us...
n every1 is d same.
a skeleton is how ALL OF US would look lyk when we all lie in our coffins.
no need 2 make a fuss out of our looks.
we r all d same n equal,
we ned not treat dose hu r pretty n handsome lyk queens n kings;
n dose hu r born 'ugly' lyk dogs or animals...
i tink every1 is has an inner beauty n dats d most impt of all.
n do not discriminate the phantom!!!
he is d same n ought 2 b treated d same!
y is he made 2 live his life in darkness? all of us deserves light...
we r all equal, we cant jus treat 1 with prejudice b'cuz they look unpleasant 2 us!
well, dis is a more serious 'equality' i toking bout,
not d last sentence from my previous post,
its far from dat:)
a short post on euality of man...
n of all d points i mentioned,
i wna stressed dat WOMAN IS AS EQUAL AS MAN!
n yar to all women out there,
pls dun make urself so cheap n lowdown sluts to b a pros.
n serve dose ***(dunno wad adj 2 use) men out dere hu
dun give a damn 2 respect 4 y'all.
we r s equal n we dun ned 2 make ourselves so cheap 2 please n entertain dem.

cch sirs

2006-09-07T18:01:00.000+08:00

oh well wadeva...
im NOT going to 'xi han' anymore...
i seriously can QUIT the course even though i quite lyk it...
wad is dis man???
I JUS FEEL DAT WE SHOULD NOT BE DIVIDED INTO HEROS OR SIDEKICKS!!!
(go watch sky high n we'll get wad i mean)...
oh... mayb i did not SEIZE D OPPORTUNITY well enuff...
i certainly need some trick there...
hmm...but even if i really seize d opportunity...i may get it...but i m not wad they wan...
yea yea yea...
smtimes, i jus think dat it is gd 2 seize d opportunity,
but d prob is,
u'll hav 2 ask if d opportunity wans u...
i mean wad is dis???
i thot i joined it 2 learn d skills s a GROUP???
now wad???
i m not gd enuff???
fine!!! i thot i m gna give my heart n soul in it...but now??
'suan le ba!'
it is not dat i wan 2 join d other grp,
i mean we shud not b divided at all!!!!!!!!!
get this rigth!!!
its not dat i 'bu shuang' wif d ple dere...
i mean dey r very nice n got alot of potential...
but i HATE the system!!!!!
i jus CANT accept dat we r divided...
wad d...
can we as a grp participate in d activities???
wad mus onli some of us get to launch d thing???
come on, sure we can do it as a whole?!
it is not dat i wan 2 lyk 'qiang feng tou' or show my face lah,
but dis is a sense of belonging...
u noe...
since we r a grp,
we shud not get DIVIDED if some of us r better dan d others...
im so disappionted dat d teachers could support dis idea...
hav dey spared a thot of our feelings?
well...debi...haha...sort of democracy here...
but i wld prefer it to b communism in dis situation...
so disappointed...
since they think we r not the cream of the crop,
den, let us quit...
its useless there without being recongised....
i wan 2 sae dis again,
its not dat i wan 2 b recongised,
but d purpose of dis whole thing is to get recongised...
well well well...wadeva...
dis kinda opportunity is not worth me seizing anyway....
totally pissed, offended and disappointed.
u arent heros n we arent sidekicks!!!!!!!!
i can quit under dis kinda system...
i wan EQUALITY!!!

alw story bks

2006-09-04T16:44:00.000+08:00

hey...went out with my dad n sis today...spend alot $ buy things:P anyway, i didnt pay 4 dem...haha...its my dad:) we 3 go take neo-prints n i look so freaking ugly can! my dad was lyk dun wan lar...paiseh,but my sis drag him in:) b4 dat, we went 2 national library. i so happi i managed 2 borrow 'whistle down d wind' n 'the master n margarita'!!! yea...i dun lyk reading... yea, those 2 bks r d bks which ALW based 2 of his musicals on. or rather only one, which is whistle down d wind. d other 1, he haven write yet, but he plannning 2 write.cool!!! i read on net dat 'the master n margarita' is quite a well-known russian literature. when translated 2 end, d ple emit some censored parts...so sad...anyway, i dunno wads d story about...i tink its quite complicated...epic? wadeva... whistle down d wind is quite a short story, d pages look thin to me...dis one, ALW has already wrote d musical liao...broadway...not movie...so sad:( i wna watch all his musicals can!!! i tink all his works all based on lit or history 1 lor!!! n i tink he did quite alot of research on dem...lyk evita, its based on a real-life story of a lady called eva peron,whom i dunno hu she was...but i tink ALW is gna make me lyk lit...haiz, but d lit department in CCHMS is making HATE lit!!! ALW's musicals is very deep...i dunno, so far i only watch the phantom of the opera n jesus christ superstar. d phantom of d opera is so d damn lit!!! it makes me realise alot of things n makes me feel alot... its has been my craze nowadays!!! well, 4 jesus christ superstar, i would say its rather religious... i dun tink christians would lyk it... i tink i read on net dat when jesus christ superstar was first on stage or smth, ple were so unhappy dat dey burn or bomb d place...not quite sure of d event...well, wad i lyk bout ALW is dat his works makes me see things in a diff perspective. lyk for jcs, judas is given a say in d things he did...y he betayed jesus n wadsoeva...judas is often portaryed as a baddie nowadays,but in jcs, ALW showed his 'side of story'...well, im not a christian, so...i may not feel how bad is judas or mary magdelane...sry:( n 4 phanotm of d opera, ple may wonder y i lyk it so much...hmm, u c, it is supposally dat such a beauty lyk christine shud goes wif a beau lyk raoul...heck care bout d disfigured phanotm rite? but in d lyric n d way d musical is written, makes ple c dat perhaps christine do luv d phantom... it is filmed in another perspective dat sociaty is superficial n b'cuz of dat, christine cant b wif d phanotm, whom perhaps is her true luv. the lyrics also make me feel alot...lyk there is 1 part when christine sang "wildly my mind beats against u, yet my soul obeys", it shows 2 me dat SHE LUVS D PHANTOM CAN!!!!!!!! ALW makes ple feel another way in his musical dat mayb a beauty lyk christine not necessary ned 2 go wif a beau.....it shows me dat perhaps in d end christine chose raoul, but i tink her soul n mind belongs 2 d phantom...wadeva...i luv d phantom n feel dat ple shud not judge a person based on their looks...it is very selfish 2 make others suffer b'cuz of our stupid scorn!!! i hate superficial ple!!! n i tink i m 1 s well:( so sad:( hmm...back 2 ALW...i luv him lar!!! i tink i wna study his works in future...gained some enlightenment from d phanotm of d opera:) hey, he's re-producing 'the sound of music'!!!!!!!!!!! i cant wait!!! i wna watch!! i hope i can finish reading d 2 bks i borrowed during hols, but so many hw 2 do...haven even start yet:( wadeva...cant we study ALW's works? i tink it teaches more stuffs than those stupid maths, science, eng, chi or wadeva!!! no use at all!!! at least his works r g8 lit n has taught me alot of things... i tink i 'matured' by his phantom of d opera...or rather 'depressed'...i tink bout many things in life ever since i watch d show..hahas...well, today me n my sis bought a chip-n-dale file 4 each other!!! same design...so cute can!!! i luv chip-n-dale now!!! i tink dey sooooo CUTE!!!!!!!!!! im dale n my sis is chip:) i tink chip looks nicer, but DALE IS CUTER!!! dale behaves lyk mushi..blur blur 1:) so cute...hmm...i miss my mushi:( n my dad has given all d hamsters away...so sad:( luv ALW, always...hes making me read!!! i hate reading... n yar, i read 'digital fortress' by dan brown d pass few days n i haven finish d bk yet...so boring can!!! no code at all...so lame...d unbreakable code is actually a virus!!! SO LAME!!! no wonder d machine cant break d code, its not a code at all...waste my time, i dun tink i gng 2 finish it...n yar!!! i shall link a website 4 u ple...its d phantom of d opera song in chi version by kris philips or 'fei xiang'...hmm, its ok...d lyrics gave me a second thot of d phantom n christine... d kinda attraction they shared...k, im not gng lyk fei xiang...i hope... its my dad's 'era'...haha:) go this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gRo-T_70dDU
haha, i tink dey got chi version is b'cuz ALW got one big scale concert of all his works in china...haiz...cant dey hav it in s'pore??? i doubt so...s'pore not artistic enuff:P sry...i luv s'pore la...just hope dat 1 day dere is a musical here of all ALW works...weee, dat will be g8 but...er hm..$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$...get me?

thx

2006-09-02T17:20:00.000+08:00

i wna thx amanda.c 4 all her concern...im fine now, thx alot...i very touched...n i mean it...thx:)
i wna thx huixin for helping me do my hair:) thx huixin, n i lyk d hairstyle very much:)
i wna thx hanle 4 helping us do d lightings 4 lit:) thx:)
i wna thx yurong n xiao xuan 4 helping us do d ppt slides:) thx alot:)
lastly, i wna thx linli n jiayu 4 making d presentation a success:)
thx veri much 2 u guys...n dats very nice of y'all n y'all made my day:)

OK

2006-09-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

I m fine...
mayb i was 2 ji dong jus now...
everything is fine...
sry 4 d previous post..
mayb i was 2 anxious bout lit liao...
amanda, thx 4 ur concern...im really fine now...
haiz...chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi...
jus hope dat everything will run smoothly tmr...
sry 4 d rant jus now...ignore me.

a poem

2006-08-29T20:06:00.000+08:00

just feeling to post...
a little rant...yea:

you are all my ex-s, and yet you are my present longings.
longing to find that faded chemistry and spark that commitment between us again...
seems impssible and i hate this fact...
i was glad to stand beside you then, yet i am crestfallen when i realised how far apart the distance is between us.
my aloofness is a masquerade...yeah, and i never have the courage to take off that mask and show how i really feel...
and i remembered a movie quote:'to let true love remain unspoken is the quickest route to a heavy heart'...quite true...
and not only it applies to love, i guess to lbe unable to let all our feelings inside us is really a terrible feeling,
and with no one to uncap my bottled up feelings,
all the confusion that lies in me is indeed pressing me hard...
we swept past each other like a stanger...and you know what... and we had known each other for long... at least then was sweet...
but now it turned all bitter...
all the time we had then brings me sweet memories...and yet, it is rather ironic that i feel really pity that such nice moments could actually just vanish like that...
when i recollect those times, i felt painful that we were actually so nice then, but i could never experience that again...*signs*
well, at least we were once happy before, sharing almost all our school time together...
to me, you sparked great chemistry in me and i put in great commitment in you...
i dont know if it's just "rejected commitment" or is that just "faded chemistry"...
you dont seem to give me an answer...
i feel so empty nowadays...
not wanting to commit in others anymore...
i am sick and tired...
since it is lost, then might as well let it go...
yeah, i try very hard to convince myself that i had already let you go, yet i am convinced that i am still clinging hard onto...
i am not sure if you ever had treated me truely with commitment a not...
and i dont really want to know, hoping to keep the answer i gave myself as a 'yes'...
i know we cant go back to the good old times again...
and i know i cant face you anymore...
i just hope that you dont feel stressed up with me then, feeling that i was sticking to you against your will...i hope not...
and yea...falling out did bring us closer, but i think it also drew us closer to an end...
and yea, i am crapping so ignore me...this post meant nothing but sheer boredom...
cheers:)

poto clips

2006-08-19T16:09:00.000+08:00

blogger radio

2006-08-19T15:38:00.000+08:00

hey people...d tagboard column there got 2 links to 2 phantom of the opera songs. the first one is "the phantom of the opera" and d second one is 'point of no return"...go listen...yea...loves the phanotm of the opera foreva:):):):):):):):):):):):):)

god

2006-08-18T18:49:00.000+08:00

http://www.mentalhealthandillness.com/creation_of_adam.htm
http://emp.byui.edu/DavisR/202/CreationOfAdamBrain.htm
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Forbidden_fruit
http://www.abarnett.demon.co.uk/atheism/eden.html
http://www.infidels.org/library/historical/robert_ingersoll/
http://www.vexen.co.uk/religion/christianity_adamandeve.html
http://www.feltd.com/classroom.html
if evil is the absence of goodness, does that means that only goodness is created and not evil? how does evil come about then? if it is claimed that god created all the good things on earth, then what about evil? why the He created the forbbiden fruit on this earth? why plant evil and sins on us? well, i do not really believe in god, but why is it that hatred is in our nature? how did it come about? why isnt the world filled with love instead? why does people choose to hate than to love? is it more difficult to love and easier to hate? well, isnt it more painful to hate some one and let the sight of that someone whom you hate ruin your day? why cant we all just let go? why do grudges exists? why do then these evil exist? how did it come about? can evil ever crease? well, 'god' cant stop all these...i think that it is us people who can stop all these...but can we??? we are no longer innocent and we knew hatred...and as a non-believer of god, i think that these evil sins aren't created by god or some 'Omipotent' up there...i think we created those ourselves. how does greed come about? well, we created money and that created greed...we created class divisions and that created discrimination and inferiority...well so can those fu*king people stop creating all these nosense and prove that they are so almighty??? stop challenging Our limits... be grateful and contented with what we have... we no need to have the best equipment to live a best lived life... our life can be lifed to the best just by ourselves and with our passion to live with passion... it's all within ourselves... treasure all your friends and family in your life... there is nothing known as hatred and jealousy between people... these concepts all exist within ourselves... do not spite people, love them, and together we can defeat that 'evil' within ourselves and not let them spread to others...
do not discriminate... not for looks... it's too superficial... and it brings pain to people... like the phantom... what he yearns is acceptance, and yet, people are letting evil rule over themselves and make evil rule him... and makes evil his masquerade... i just cant stand why people are so sadistic and enjoy making others' life hell... perhaps... all our creation today has become essentials and because of all that we cant break free from this kind of 'morality'??? well... i seriously dont know what to say anymore... just hope that all these evil will end...do not let 'good triumph evil', cuz dont even let evil to exist at all... thats all folks...take care... i think i am guilty of being manipulated by all these too...so sad... how can i stop all this??? my masquerade...how did it come about???
lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost lost

links

2006-08-14T17:50:00.000+08:00

hey people, here are some articles. Do read them for leisure...dont take some things mentioned in the articles too seriously...
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mary_Magdalene
http://www.thenazareneway.com/life_of_st_mary_magdalene.htm
http://bioweb.cs.earlham.edu/9-12/evolution/HTML/theory.html

features bout every 1

2006-08-10T13:23:00.000+08:00

just feel like featuring everybody in bn...
ak : she seems 2 me dat shes always happy...keep laufing all day:)
amanda see : she is very nice 2 tok 2 n will make ple lauf lyk siao...sort of...
runming : dont reali noe much bout her, but reali wna thx her 4 d zuo wen jie li sai...
eunice : nice 2 tok 2 oso...can crap wif....
gladys : so d hardworking lorz...
xizi : well, she is nice enuf 2 write out some guzheng stuffs 4 me n even offered 2 help me out in gz.
jixin : dun noe much bout her, but i tink her handwriting veri nice:)
catherine : got sportsmanship
emelia : very softspoken...dat all i noe...
hanle : g8 leadership
lynn : reads very fluently...er...dun reali noe her oso:(
serene : runs very fast!!! i mean d 2.4 thing...
hui xin : hmm...i noe dis 1:) i feel very comfortable with her n can crap alot wif her n she is nice enuf not 2 mind bout my nosense:) loves toking 2 her can:)
michelle : she seems very happi 2 me lyk a.k... she jus lauf out of nth...:)
casey : i tink she may seem a kid, but i tink shes quite mature 2 me though:) dunno.
xiao xuan : everything is jus ok wif her...very nice...says yes 2 most requests:)
debi : haha, desk partner...actually, i m quite surprise dat i can tok so much 2 her...she reali makes me tink alot, provoking my mind everything time in class wif her super chim stuffs...hopes she dun find me irritating though...
lin li : haiz...quite stressed up wif her...as in she is lyk always studying n studying 1 lorz...dun b so guai can?
zhu jun : i sat wif her last year:) she craps alot wif me 2...nice xperience last year crappin bout very GROSS stuffs...hahas
bao fang : she is super duper courteous! a model pupil indeed:)...always saying thank you n sorry n stuffs lyk dis...
yinghui : she is so gentle can!!?? hmm...cheer up lars:)
yu ling : a nice chairperson:)
zoey : very responsible n gets wad shes supposed 2 do done veri quickly...for eg, d cdc hu pan liu heng...she lyk find all her costume liao n i haven even start wif mine lorz...
shu mei : me:) idiotic loner:P
yun ting : my science lab partner...works well wif her during xperiments time:)
jia yu : another studious(dunno spelling) 1...
wu yi : hey...she tags my blog!!! haha,rong xing:) tok 2 her on bus 31 b4...quite nice 2 tok 2 :)
yurong : she is soooooooo happy one lar!!! doesnt reali take life very seriously...n dats a gd thing bout her dat i tink its very hard 4 us 2 acheive now...
gillian : shes bit lyk casey...seems a kid, but i tink shes quite mature, even more mature dan some of us:)
xu meng : i only knows she is always playing hang man wif lynn:)btw, thx 4 lending me ur pen during d home ec test:)
boys....
jiajia... i tink he studies alot...
jiahe... i tink he can study very well he he tries...
yiyang...dunno how can he put up wif dat gz teacher when d bn ple all quit he stil can ren...
jianfeng...nice vice-chair...always sweeping d floor
andy...hm..cute?well, at least dis wad others always say...
tiansheng...er...i only noe dat zhujun is irritated by him:P...
yeah dats all folks:)
hmm...lastly...i realli treasure d times i had wif y'all, though i may seem a loner n didnt reali take part in alot of activities, but, i reali enjoy d times we had together...im reali lucky in 2bn...its a very guai class compared 2 d rest of sec 2 n make learning reali conducive in here:)

wad kind girl m i

2006-08-08T16:25:00.000+08:00

You are a Brainy Girl!

Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books.

You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more.

For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests.

A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

yeah, a bit BHB...but dis is wad d results say...

strength

2006-08-08T16:11:00.000+08:00

Your Scholastic Strength Is Developing Ideas

You can take a spark of inspiration and turn it into a full fledged concept.

You are talented at brainstorming, visualizing, organizing, and independent thinking.

You should major in:

Natural sciences

Computer science

Creative writing

Math

Architecture

Journalism

What Should You Major In?

my tree?

2006-08-08T16:01:00.000+08:00

You Are A Rowan Tree

You are full of charm and cheer. You light up a room.

And while you crave attention, you do it without ego.

You are an interesting mix of contradictions - and very unpredictable.

You are both dependent and independent, calm and restless.

You are passionate, emotional, gregarious, and (at times) unforgiving.

What's Your Celtic Horoscope?

2006-08-08T15:55:00.000+08:00

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.

While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.

Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.

You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

luv element

2006-08-08T15:45:00.000+08:00

Your Love Element Is Metal

In love, you inspire and respect your partner.

For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience.

You attract others with wit and a bit of flash.

Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you.

Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life.

You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past.

You connect best with: Earth

Avoid: Fire

You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other

What Element Is Your Love?

life path no

2006-08-08T15:42:00.000+08:00

Your Life Path Number is 8

Your purpose in life is to help others succeed

You are both a natural leader and a natural success. You are also a great judge of character.

You have a head for business and finance. You know how to make money.

A great visionary, you can see gold where other people see nothing.

In love, you are very generous - with gifts, time, and guidance.

You love to inspire people, but it can be frustrating when they don't understand your vision.

Great success comes easily for you. But so does great failure, as you are very reckless.

You are confident, and sometimes this confidence borders on arrogance.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

2006-08-08T15:40:00.000+08:00

You Should Rule Saturn

Saturn is a mysterious planet that can rarely be seen with the naked eye.

You are perfect to rule Saturn because like its rings, you don't always follow the rules of nature.

And like Saturn, to really be able to understand you, someone delve beyond your appearance.

You are not an easy person to befriend. However, once you enter a friendship, you'll be a friend for life.

You think slowly but deeply. You only gain great understanding after a situation has past.

What Planet Should You Rule?

A personality

2006-08-08T15:39:00.000+08:00

You Have A Type A- Personality

You are one of the most balanced people around

Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want

You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you.

When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back

Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love!

You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

color heart

2006-08-08T15:32:00.000+08:00

Your Heart Is Purple

For you, love is about establishing and developing a deep connection.

If it's true love, it brings you more wisdom and inner strength.

Your flirting style: Sincere

Your lucky first date: An afternoon at a tea house

Your dream lover: Is both thoughtful and expressive

What you bring to relationships: Understanding

What Color Heart Do You Have?

how scary r u?

2006-08-08T15:28:00.000+08:00

You Are Scary

You even scare scary people sometimes!

How Scary Are You?

not very true lohz...i very nice 1 mah??!!

oct

2006-08-08T15:24:00.000+08:00

Your True Birth Month Is October

Selfish

Decisive

Romantic

Emotional

Concerned

Daydreamer

Sympathetic

Just and fair

Loves to chat

Bad tempered

Loves outdoors

Very opinionated

Strong clairvoyance

Attractive and suave

Easily lose confidence

Always making friends

Does not lie or pretend

Touchy and easily jealous

Inner and physical beauty

Treats friends importantly

Seldom helps unless asked

Easily hurt but recovers easily

Soft-spoken, loving and caring

Loves those who love in return

Spendthrift and easily influenced

Does not care of what others think

Loves to travel, the arts and literature

What's Your True Birth Month?